Trying To Figure Out Life After Ecstasy (combat)

[Need an Oasis]

Yeah Ned... I do, as much as possible.

 

[daniel]

Oasis you thought about a private ceremony with the Justice of the Peace? It's all about the bond between the two anyhow. Ask two complete strangers to witness for you guys. Worked for me and my wife - 14 years ago.

 

[daniel]

Welcome to the forum mate.
How long have you been back mate???
The feelings you are experiencing are normal. You don't really want to be back killing, you just want to be back in that environment where you are a member of an important team and you mean something.
The feelings of being back will eventually fade away and the horror of battle will keep going. The problem with being surrounded by selfish civilians will linger though.
They are always worried about the petty stuff.

exactly!! i been posting from the manic so i aint looking at the clear picture.

Animal it is none of your goddam business whether they got the fanciest car, truck or bling - UNLESS they are in you personal space. If not, it'll consume you just as much as the warzone does. You got a long long way to go my brother! I used to have those sell everything go back to Nam and live like f*ckin Tarzan moments. Yeah life in the warzone was easier "kill or be killed" was about all you needed to worry about. Only problem if you don't get that resolved, then you got a whole other lifetime covering up and trying to fight the world - cause you just might hate the person you have become. Stand up and act like a goddam Marine and stop sniveling. I am the pogue of you all . . . .and a disrespectful shitbird to boot.

 

[Jimmy1]

No man, that is the beauty of the forum. Sometimes, some people need to be told to 'Harden The f*ck Up', I am generally just too nice, unless someone pisses me off.

Once you post on here you are open to comment. If you don't want comment, don't post.

Your good Daniel. And Animal, don't take anything personally.

 

[reddevil1111]

Semper Sigh. Shits a nightmare thats for sure. No real clear answers. Then again, think back to time over there and I bet you knew there were no answers waiting even then. We all missed things from home. Food, freedom,real sex... Then you get home to find out that the omlette you craved tastes real bland, the sex dosent seem as good as it should be and freedom is a preception not reality.
I guess you can crave the sand, bad food,water, hate and rage. My war never ended. I still expect it around every corner. I miss parts of it. I know what you meant about the slow motion and out of your own body. I think most of us will admit thats common. There is a comfort with it. I know what to expect and whats going to happen for the most part. I think its about a lack of control. When we can control the situation it improves us and makes us more at ease.
Glad to see another Marine on here. Sorry to say hello and all that but if you have PTSD this is the place to come to. Good people here. We even have a few squids for fun times. :)

 

[Need an Oasis]

And Animal, don't take anything personally.

I agree, Jimmy. But that's the hard part, isn't it? At least for me.

Oasis you thought about a private ceremony with the Justice of the Peace?

I have, I sent you a PM because I don't want to hijack Animal's thread. :)

 

[reddevil1111]

Animal? huh? hijack? Us in here? lol... thats all we seem to do...

 

[JarHed]

Hey Animal

You'll never find the kind of comraderie that you experienced in the Corps anywhere else. I looked for it for a lifetime an just never found it, except here. It's about the closest thing to that that you'll ever get. One of the things that's come out in the therapy that I'm in now is the realization that when I was wounded for the last time and they put me on the medevac chopper I waved to one of the other squad leaders as we took off. I didn't realize till yesterday that that moment was the last time that I ever saw my buddies, the last time. I didn't know it at the time, but it really hurt in a way that I'd buried for a long, long time. I'm just, in a way, starting to grieve about those kinds of things now after more than 40 years. It's too long to wait, but this is the time for it. That's what you and I and most everyone else here misses. People closer to you than family that you could trust with your life. There is just no civilian equivilant for that. You'll always miss that, and that's OK. In time I hope to remember it fondly without the tears and pain, it will happen for me, I know it will, I hope it will for you as well.

Killin's easy, livin's hard. Work at the livin' part, let the other go. The Corps makes perfect killing machines, they just don't know how to adjust us back to the rest of the real world, but they're workin' on it. Therapy is hard at first but it will eventually get you to a better place and life for you and those around you.

Now for Oasis

Have the wedding that you and your future husband want. It's what you'll remember most, not what color a specific thing is or some minor detail. It's your wedding and not anyone else's. My wife and I had our's exactly like we wanted and didn't care who liked or didn't like it. We've always been glad we did. We've been through heaven and hell together in the 40+ years that we've been married. The good, bad and everything else. I'm so lucky to have someone like her to walk the path of life with. I wish you and yours the same happiness and longeviety as we've been fortunate to have. Be happy, you both deserve it.

To All

Semper Fi

Jarhed

 

[Need an Oasis]

I'm so lucky to have someone like her to walk the path of life with.

Thanks Jar. We are lucky.

 

[daniel]

Jarhed and even in real life we always seem to find one another. Marines just have a certain look that is probably only discernable from another of our brotherhood. Good or Bad, Marines for life.

 

[Zipperhead]

That and the red ball caps give it away!

 

[daniel]

Does anyone think Animal might just be a "one hit wonder"? just saying a lot of energy got expended here . . .