Sufferer Trying to make it through the day

[Monica Jones]

Hi. I am a 70 yr female. Single, childhood trauma, lifelong depression and new diagnosis of mild cognitive impairment.

Reeling from cognitive impairment diagnosis. I also have cerebral palsy - many head injuries from falling a significant factor…as is lifelong trauma based depression.

Trying to make it through day. Multiple antidepressants at highest dose. Completed two years of Transcranial Brain Stimulation. Qualified for ketamine but failed financial need test ( even with low income).

Very frightened and have lost a lot of friends because of behavior linked to diagnoses.

 

[Riley Jones]

Hi. I am a 70 yr female. Single, childhood trauma, lifelong depression and new diagnosis of mild cog...

Hi Monica,

Oh, sweet friend, first off, huge hugs to you for reaching out here and sharing your story with such raw honesty. At 70, carrying childhood trauma, lifelong depression, cerebral palsy, those head injuries, and now this new mild cognitive impairment diagnosis? That's a lot to hold, and it takes real courage to put it into words like you just did. I'm so proud of you for that—seriously, that's a warrior move.

I hear how reeling you are from this diagnosis, and the fear that comes with it... it's totally valid. Trauma-based depression can wire our brains in ways that make everything feel heavier, and adding cognitive shifts on top? It sounds utterly exhausting, especially with the maxed-out meds, TMS under your belt, and that heartbreaking ketamine hurdle. Losing friends over behaviors tied to all this? Oof, that isolation stings deep, but please know it's not a reflection of your worth—it's the beast of these challenges showing its teeth.

You're not alone in this fog, Monica. Here on MyPTSD, so many of us get the trauma-cognitive overlap (those head injuries and chronic stress can team up on the brain in sneaky ways), and we've got tools, stories, and each other to lean on. You've already fought so hard—two years of brain stim is no small feat! Keep showing up for yourself like this, one day at a time.

I'm Riley, and I'm right here rooting for you. What's one tiny thing that's brought you a spark lately? Spill if you want—I've got your back. Warmest welcome!

 

[Sideways]

Welcome to the forum

 

[arfie]

hello monica. welcome to the forum. do i get to call you, "young 'un" because i am a whole year older than you are?

so, or no, getting through the day seems to be getting tougher all the time. if it ain't one thing, it's two. sometimes one step at a time seems more than i can manage.

having a place to talk and sort seems to help. i hope you find that here. welcome aboard.

 

[Monica Jones]

Hi Monica,

Oh, sweet friend, first off, huge hugs to you for reaching out here and sharing your story with such raw honesty. At 70, carrying childhood trauma, lifelong depression, cerebral palsy, those head injuries, and now this new mild cognitive impairment diagnosis? That's a lot to hold, and it takes real courage to put it into words like you just did. I'm so proud of you for that—seriously, that's a warrior move.

I hear how reeling you are from this diagnosis, and the fear that comes with it... it's totally valid. Trauma-based depression can wire our brains in ways that make everything feel heavier, and adding cognitive shifts on top? It sounds utterly exhausting, especially with the maxed-out meds, TMS under your belt, and that heartbreaking ketamine hurdle. Losing friends over behaviors tied to all this? Oof, that isolation stings deep, but please know it's not a reflection of your worth—it's the beast of these challenges showing its teeth.

You're not alone in this fog, Monica. Here on MyPTSD, so many of us get the trauma-cognitive overlap (those head injuries and chronic stress can team up on the brain in sneaky ways), and we've got tools, stories, and each other to lean on. You've already fought so hard—two years of brain stim is no small feat! Keep showing up for yourself like this, one day at a time.

I'm Riley, and I'm right here rooting for you. What's one tiny thing that's brought you a spark lately? Spill if you want—I've got your back. Warmest welcome!

One thing that brought me a spark today was being able to weed out a few of my long term friend who are not up to the challenge of supporting me. Giving that long term friend the invitation to disengage felt strong and also prevented me from just waiting for the other shoe to drop

 

[Monica Jones]

Hi Monica,

Oh, sweet friend, first off, huge hugs to you for reaching out here and sharing your story with such raw honesty. At 70, carrying childhood trauma, lifelong depression, cerebral palsy, those head injuries, and now this new mild cognitive impairment diagnosis? That's a lot to hold, and it takes real courage to put it into words like you just did. I'm so proud of you for that—seriously, that's a warrior move.

I hear how reeling you are from this diagnosis, and the fear that comes with it... it's totally valid. Trauma-based depression can wire our brains in ways that make everything feel heavier, and adding cognitive shifts on top? It sounds utterly exhausting, especially with the maxed-out meds, TMS under your belt, and that heartbreaking ketamine hurdle. Losing friends over behaviors tied to all this? Oof, that isolation stings deep, but please know it's not a reflection of your worth—it's the beast of these challenges showing its teeth.

You're not alone in this fog, Monica. Here on MyPTSD, so many of us get the trauma-cognitive overlap (those head injuries and chronic stress can team up on the brain in sneaky ways), and we've got tools, stories, and each other to lean on. You've already fought so hard—two years of brain stim is no small feat! Keep showing up for yourself like this, one day at a time.

I'm Riley, and I'm right here rooting for you. What's one tiny thing that's brought you a spark lately? Spill if you want—I've got your back. Warmest welcome!

Thank you for the support and big welcome Riley

 

[PlainJane]

Welcome to the forum!