Uncharted Territory

[vikingr24]

Thanks Viking…..to follow me right now would lead us all astray and likely into the bottom of a pit filled with tar and venomous snakes.

You will do fine, brother. Carry on.

 

[Warrior Chicken]

I should clarify……I'm a sister.

 

[nomedic1]

Lol brothers and sisters accepted the same

 

[Friday]

Word of warning on that box.... Get all your other shit squared away to the best of your ability, first if you can. Good therapist, support structure of some damn kind, living situ sorted, exercise routine to help bleed stress, eating every day whether you want to or not, etc.

A good therapist will insist on that, help you sort out life stuff/ protect what you have & build what you don't, as well as teach you tools to be able to deal with shit when things get gnarly, before opening the box and shaking it. Because you're right. It will get hard. Unlike most kinds of therapy, trauma therapy things get worse before they get better. Just common sense if you think about it. So you really, really wanna set your life up to be able to take the blow.

Once that box is open? It doesn't shut again. Even before prying the lid off, things leak out, f*ck shit up, and it clearly ain't working anymore... So now's the time to get a jump on.

 

[Warrior Chicken]

Once that box is open? It doesn't shut again. Even before prying the lid off, things leak out, f*ck shit up, and it clearly ain't working anymore... So now's the time to get a jump on.

Thanks Friday, everything that all of you have replied in this thread resonates with me and is far more useful that the self-manufactured fog I had created in an effort to protect myself. I closed myself off in so many ways and was really just going through the motions of life and trying not to disturb the box for fear of knocking it off the shelf. I liked that a layer of dust had nicely crusted over that box, but without warning…..something in my current life caused it to crack open recently and now it's not shutting. Now it's getting worse, and all I want is to go back to the fog….but I know that's not an option.

When I was in the army, I thrived on challenge….physical, mental, any challenge was good and I wanted more.

This challenge though…..scares the hell out of me…..hence the handle Warrior Chicken

I was alone, until I found all of you.

 

[nomedic1]

Glad we can be here for you

 

[Deleted member 33052]

It's true, once you open the box, there's no turning back. In my experience, opening up and seeking help took more courage than anything I've ever dealt with. But the reality is that your traumas are trapped inside you, and they will never heal on their own. In fact, they will clamor to be released with increasing stridency, until you're faced with limited, ugly choices.

You've found a safe place here. We're not all combat veterans, but we understand trauma and ptsd. You're among friends.

 

[Freida]

I AM SO VERY VERY VERY F***CKING PROUD OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:hug::):cool: You go girl! You've got this and we've got your six!