Underneath The Rage

[daniel]

I have used rage as my tool to push most things out of the way for many years. I spent many many therapy sessions trying to dissect it. I never controlled it. In the warzone I began to learn the use of fear, intimidation and putting on the warface got me what I wanted. Perfecting this to the point that only words could make some fall to the ground in fear of their lives. But, when I got past the rage there was guilt. Bigtime guilt, suicidal guilt. I buried it. Those scenes were too frightening to revisit.

Guess what I am trying to say is living on the homicidal ideation side can only lead to the suicidal, down the road when you finally paint yourself into a corner. Why? Because, if you examine it, the rage just might be your own self-hatred. So, you take it out on everyone around you. Takes a lot of work to see it. just sayin' . . .

 

[Jimmy1]

Daniel,

Rage actually comes from the our genetic makeup. Its inbuilt and called the 'Fight or Flight' response. Whenever we get into a difficult situation its 'Fight or Flight'. Unfortunately the military have taught us to walk into a fight, not run away.
That is a good thing when you think about it. If there is a house fire, we can walk into danger to help others, but it gets us into trouble for the same reasons. Rage is just anger at the extreme.

What we all need to learn is when to stop, back away, recoup out thoughts and if need be go back and revisit the situation rather than go in all guns blazing from the start.

Just my opinion

 

[Jerry]

Understand what your sayin Jimmy but most of the time us PTSD ers have an explosive switch that often can't be controled. When it comes there's usually no turning back and we often find ourselves in a situation where it's easier to ask for forgivness than it is permission. I for one have found that the meds do help to some degree but on the flip side I find a higher anger when I reach that point.

 

[daniel]

Understand what your sayin Jimmy but most of the time us PTSD ers have an explosive switch that often can't be controled. When it comes there's usually no turning back and we often find ourselves in a situation where it's easier to ask for forgivness than it is permission. I for one have found that the meds do help to some degree but on the flip side I find a higher anger when I reach that point.

zat you 'sniffer? if so good. pretty damn unique ptsd site from those of our past. good morning wakeup. later brother

 

[Jerry]

It's me Bro!

 

[Jimmy1]

Understand what your sayin Jimmy but most of the time us PTSD ers have an explosive switch that often can't be controled. When it comes there's usually no turning back and we often find ourselves in a situation where it's easier to ask for forgivness than it is permission. I for one have found that the meds do help to some degree but on the flip side I find a higher anger when I reach that point.

That's the key I have been working on and will continue to work on.
If my stress bucket hits a certain level and I have no escape, I am in the same boat, white hot fury, but it can be managed some of the time mate.
It's not a way to live, but that is why we isolate, and some of us become reclusive.
They taught us to be angry, it helps us deal with pain, sadness and every other emotion and keeps us going