NightSky
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Yes, that was my dad as well. I thought I had "resolved" it. But this past week my T went over some of the memories with me and I left shaking, hard, for hours. I realized there's a lot more there than I thought that needs to be processed. It doesn't feel as scary as other trauma I had but it was the persistent unpredictable environment keeping me always on edge that eroded my sense of safety, I think. And the name calling that made me believe I'm a nuisance to everyone and now can't ask for help when I need it.
I'm reading a book called When Love meets Fear and the author talks about how even when we can rationalize why someone behaved the way they did, and forgive them, the memories are encoded on a cellular level in our bodies and we react out of those in present day. That was helpful to read.
I'm reading a book called When Love meets Fear and the author talks about how even when we can rationalize why someone behaved the way they did, and forgive them, the memories are encoded on a cellular level in our bodies and we react out of those in present day. That was helpful to read.
