After this has gone on for the last month, I am at my wit's end. It's bad enough having to deal with flashbacks during the day & nightmares at night, but no longer feel physically safe going to bed. Started off with me fighting in sleep/having non-epileptic seizures, repeatedly leading to me falling out of bed :( After doing my back in pretty badly, I agreed with therapist it was no longer safe & moved mattress onto the floor, so at least when it happened I would be safe right? Wrong!! *sighs*
Since sleeping on floor I have woken up in the oddest of places - underneath my chest of drawers & in front of door have been most recent culprits. I have no recollection of doing it, and will wake each morning without fail with shear panic, often screaming & shouting, hidden right under covers, scrunched up in ball, thumb in mouth, cuddling teddy (so at least I've worked out it's a very young me being played out).
To make matters worse, on top of this (& having actually trashed my room a fair few times in my sleep!!) I've woken up covered in bruises/carpet burns/ scratches red, sore, tender & oozing -- self harming in sleep outside of my awareness :s Really don't know what to do, neither does therapist :s Friends find my 'night time antics' amusing, and so does a part of me, but am also petrified - how far can things escalate?
Already very aware of making sure bedroom door shut so at least don't move elsewhere in the flat. urgh! Doesn't feel at all safe. Considered investing in bed rail, but as so violent in sleep I figured I may harm myself on it, or when am on the move in sleep I may try and jump from it, causing more damage. Also seriously considering stripping my room of everything, moving all furniture into my spare room, just having mattress on floor & that's it. Need some kind of 'onsie' thing too, complete with mittens!! Lol!
I've joked with therapist that I should be restrained, but that's what it feels like I need right now to feel & be safe. I can't believe how out of hand it all is & don't know what to do to change it :s
xxx
Since sleeping on floor I have woken up in the oddest of places - underneath my chest of drawers & in front of door have been most recent culprits. I have no recollection of doing it, and will wake each morning without fail with shear panic, often screaming & shouting, hidden right under covers, scrunched up in ball, thumb in mouth, cuddling teddy (so at least I've worked out it's a very young me being played out).
To make matters worse, on top of this (& having actually trashed my room a fair few times in my sleep!!) I've woken up covered in bruises/carpet burns/ scratches red, sore, tender & oozing -- self harming in sleep outside of my awareness :s Really don't know what to do, neither does therapist :s Friends find my 'night time antics' amusing, and so does a part of me, but am also petrified - how far can things escalate?
Already very aware of making sure bedroom door shut so at least don't move elsewhere in the flat. urgh! Doesn't feel at all safe. Considered investing in bed rail, but as so violent in sleep I figured I may harm myself on it, or when am on the move in sleep I may try and jump from it, causing more damage. Also seriously considering stripping my room of everything, moving all furniture into my spare room, just having mattress on floor & that's it. Need some kind of 'onsie' thing too, complete with mittens!! Lol!
I've joked with therapist that I should be restrained, but that's what it feels like I need right now to feel & be safe. I can't believe how out of hand it all is & don't know what to do to change it :s
xxx
