Very Sad And Confused...

[Ocean5]

I slept late very late...miss called, and several text messages from property manager 4am. Making sure I am "ok" because he got message about "screams" from apartment, and I live alone. Had to apologize, admit PTSD and nightmares :(

Probably nightmares, but could be D.I.D again.....

 

[claire east]

I slept late very late...miss called, and several text messages from property manager 4am. Making sure I...

I often have screaming nightmares if ya need to chat I'm here

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Gosh, I'm lucky for not living in apartement, or with neighbours close. and I hope to never live that way.

All the people I'd upset with the stuff that happens

I hope that you didnt have too much problems because of it :hug:

 

[Sideways]

Ugh, nightmares. You go to sleep for some respite from your head, and BAM!

My last boyf (8 years ago!) used to get pretty unsettled by me screaming out things in my sleep like, "Get your f**king hands off me".

Sorry you woke up having a night like that:(

 

[Tinyflame]

Too late this time, but could you say it was the TV, next time? Anyway, it's not a crime, & you can have them I'm sure without ptsd, or telling anyone that. There's some term I can't recall for not stifling one's self or actions during REM sleep, maybe use that (it's sort of true, anyway. Just tell them it's like sleep walking/ harmless/ sorry.)

Try not to worry about it @Ocean5 . :hug:

 

[Ocean5]

need to chat I'm here

Thank you for support.

Never been told this before. I just hope it was just property manager getting home late, and hearing me since we live on same floor (and he is a good guy.) I don't want neighbors to think I'm a freak or dangerous! I hoping he was just concerned, and being discrete. Otherwise how do I face neighbors...

....I remember when a kid my mom telling me I talked in my sleep, and would have serious arguments with my brother when asleep. But for property manager to call and text at 4am.... Uh... I mean he lives on my floor, and has to walk past my apartment to get to his. So maybe I am just overreacting. Since I'm sure he was very concerned.

I'm lucky for not living in apartement, or with neighbours close. and I hope to never live that way.

Since teenager I've in apartments or dorms. It was my escape. Reason so upsetting. Like how many times has this happened? Is it just getting worse?

Thanks for your support. Last several years I want to disappear into country side, and nature. Even though I like convince of city life. Yet at peace in nature, and away from most people.

You go to sleep for some respite from your head, and BAM!

Exactly just trying to put myself in calm state. But lately when I wake-up my bed looks like a tornado hit it...so I know the nights have been bad lately....

Thank you for support.

 

[Ocean5]

From what I'm being told happened 3-4am. Going to have to increase benzo and herbs combo to sleep. I can't have this happening!

My life is already a mess, and never a compliant from a neighbor. I will schedule appoint with p-doc next week.

I hate medicines, and I hate PTSD. I hate it all. Sry just upsetting.

 

[Sideways]

It is upsetting - don't apologise for being upset. This is an illness that doesn't just mess up the way we think & function, it even affects one of the most basic, primal human processes - sleep - which we need to regenerate and repair for the day ahead. It s*cks. It's sh!t having to take pills just to bloody sleep. No need to apologise for getting upset about that at all.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I scream and fight in my sleep, i wake up screaming, fighting, running. Ive ran straight into my wall maybe times. Ive also hurt myself 'down there' in my sleep. If you wake me up by touching me i hit you on accident...have hit a nurse in a hospital trying to take my vitials and not wake me...she got hit right in the face...felt soooo bad!

Many many things done due to nightmares by me...

You arent alone! :hug:

 

[Deleted member 28403]

@Ocean5
Same, countryside is my dream, or ships, or anything that is getting away from this. I have the bad luck of living in the same city as my abuser, so I see him randomly somewhere from time to time and get shitty huge triggers

 

[Ocean5]

It is upsetting - don't apologise for being upset. This is an illness that doesn't just mess up...

How true.... *Hug* if you accept.

I scream and fight in my sleep, i wake up screaming, fighting, running. Ive ran straight into...

Thanks to know I'm not alone. I was running into half opened doors. Learned before going to sleep to take safety measures..as sad as that sounds.

I've ended up going to Urgent Care for injuries I couldn't explain past couple years... When I was first referred to psychiatrist after x-rays and test.

I have new p-doc on text, hopefully get an appointment early next week. No not in U.S. that would take weeks. So far property manager very understanding.

Maybe why I am single...which people don't understand. When I got hospitalized for seizures for medicine withdrawals and ptsd I think - doctors quickly realized strapping down "WORST" thing hey could do. At least I can laugh about that now??

Same, countryside is my dream, or ships, or anything that is getting away from this.

Sorry @Saelben Reason I moved thousands of miles away from so called home.
Ship would be great. When I moved later in life I'd watch ships for hours entering and leaving port. Wanting to be on one....
*hug* if you accept

 

[Deleted member 28403]

:hug:s @Ocean5
I once made a raft and sailed a couple kilometers. Thought of running away on it, but would be hard to travel in the possible storms around here,and I haven't anywhere to go