Vicious Cycle

[K-9 Al]

I trya nd stay as busy as i can to keep my mind off of Iraq. I try and ingulf myeslf into school (somethign positive) Yet its hard due to my memory.

So on one side: I try and stay as busya s I can to keep from anxiety and panic attacks...on the other token I am driving myself to complete meltdown because I have no time to just...relax....yet, i cant stop

 

[Zipperhead]

Set aside some me time. I'd tell you how it works, but I am a hypocrit. I have no me time.

 

[Jimmy1]

I am hearing you mate. I am not allowed to work, I would lose it the minute someone was a smart arse to me, or when there was too much stress on me. Yet, having all the time in the world is not good either. As I don't find enjoyment much in anything I do, its hard to get motivated.

Does that make sense???

 

[K-9 Al]

Jimmy- crystal clear...

I dont do anything then i get deployment thoughts, anxiety, panic attacks, etc...So, i fiqure "hey i will do a lot of school, maybe that will help and when im done i feel like ive accomplished somethign" Yet i totally become a school-a-holic and that is all I do...then I am soo overhwelmed by that and other priorities I am even worse off...

Rock and hard place...rock and hard place..