Weird Feeling, Is This Dissociation???

[ggsparky]

I wasn't diagnosed with ptsd. But B thinking I might have it not sure. I'm gonna be asking a lot of questions in this forum to see if its worth myself getting checked out, so please be honest with me.

So sometimes at work or at parties or just anywhere I'll be fine one minute and suddenly just feel hot. I know I have bad anxiety so sometimes I use to think it was just an anxiety attack but I don't know, because it goes on.... I suddenly feel like the room splits into a 4th dimension if that's possible, basically everything is all out of place and things are closer and farther then they really are. I many times start running into people and freaking out because my periferal vision is blurry. In fact it might just be a eye contact issue now that I think about it. hmmmmm.....

Lol but then again this has happened way to many times and not only does my eyes have problems focusing but I'm super sensitive to sound and jump a lot, I can't pay attention and when I talk it's not coming from my mouth but it's like I'm watching myself in a movie and I'm basically just a walking shell. I can't control what I say very well and I end up saying dumb stuff, I don't feel like myself at all and I feel like everyone is closing in on me and I want to scream. Now, I do smoke and stuff and I don't smoke at work so I'm wondering if maybe it's just a sign that my body wants a cig badly or if its dissociation.

I also talk to myself on a daily basis. Happened since I was a kid but didn't realize I was doing it till recently, I'm 23! lol but I imagine I'm talking to someone about things that bother me. I actually don't know in doing it and sometimes it's usually in the car or when I'm alone. Luckly I'm able to snap out of it when people are around but is that dissociation???? Okay what do you guys think?

 

[Abstract]

Hi.

I do think the first stuff sounds like depersonalisation and derealisation - blurry vision, splitting of visual images, things looking larger and smaller etc.

Talking to ourselves can just be a habit and have nothing to do with dissociation or for some it can be linked.

Jumping easily is usually linked to anxiety. Anxiety can range from normal anxiety, to an anxiety disorder like GAD and through to PTSD at the far end.

Good luck!

 

[Deleted member 1860]

What do you mean by "and stuff"?

Regardless, a psychiatrist must diagnose you. You have enough symptoms to seek out professional help, so I hope you are able to find someone who can properly diagnose you.

 

[Hashi]

Hi ggsparky, and welcome to the forum.

You've asked for honesty, and in all honesty I'd say that the best thing to do is see someone now for a diagnosis rather than trying to check off symptoms or ask for other people's feelings about them. All we can say is maybe it's such and such and maybe it isn't, and suggest you see a professional who can diagnose you. It would be irresponsible for any of us to say "no, don't bother getting a diagnosis for whatever it might be", so you are only ever going to get that suggestion anyway.

I don't think you need validation from anyone else in order to look into PTSD as a possibility, if you're wondering whether it might be. If you have that question in your mind then it's always worth getting it checked out.

Do you have a reason for not seeking a diagnosis now?

 

[Abstract]

I agree with the others that attempting to diagnose ourselves is never a good idea. It can also be pretty pointless in some respects as so many things can look alike and yet have very different sources or underpinnings. And there is more to diagnoses than meets the eye. However, for me, I know that looking around first has been helpful clarifying my thoughts about my own experiences.

It has also helped me clarify whether going for a diagnoses is worth it or not. For example when I realised I had attention problems it was before I thought trauma was part of my history. I looked around at information about attention deficit disorder and educated myself a bit. Then I contacted a psychiatrist online to see if it was worthwhile having a diagnoses done. She very quickly brought up "trauma" as a possibility.

In other words although I agree with everyone when they say that self diagnoses is not a good idea I have found that just chatting about things in general first can help me decide whether it is worth getting a diagnoses and help me better present my problems and symptoms when going for that diagnoses. And how best to do that. For example I would not have thought to see someone knowledgeable in both PTSD and ADD if I had not done what I did first.

 

[ggsparky]

Thanks guys and Abstract I really liked what you said, thats exactly what I'm inteading because I know self diagnoses is not gonna work, and I don't know I hate the idea of getting a diagnoses. So I'm just gonna read about stuff for now and if symptoms get worse then ill go get checked out. I just wanted to know what dissociation and flashbacks felt like and what better way to find out then on a PTSD form website. I was diagnosed with ADD lol

 

[Abstract]

Ggs, I really encourage you to get a diagnoses. Life is too short and there is help available. Regardless of if it is PTSD or not having experiences than interfere with our lives is enough to warrant getting treated. And a diagnoses is a good start to finding the right help.

 

[Pietro]

i was diagnosed with ADD

Turns-out that ADD can actually be from trauma-related issues. I was quite surprised by this, and only discovered this a few months ago. Talking to a professional would probably be really helpful for you -- you don't even need to get a "certified diagnosis". Many therapists hate diagnoses and don't even care to use specific ones (mine is like that).

 

[ggsparky]

I was at work yesterday and people saying I space out alot, I had no idea I spaced out that much. Lol and ill probably get help because my night mares are still bad. I had one last night and I couldn't tell my husband because its just dumb and I hate it and I'm in such a bad mood today and cant get it off my mind. It's so dumb....