What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Sivawoman]

I feel good right now. I'm snuggled on the couch with a quilt, and my plump, snuggling cat under the quilt and sleeping.
My good days are becoming more prevalent, so this is good. I do know I will have more bad days, and I'm thankful that I have this forum. I will come here next time instead of cutting, and hopefully I will be able to express my pain in a healthy way.

 

[GreenFrog2]

I am feeling ODD. That really is the best work for it.

I know what needs to be done, I even know how to do it! I actually do do it - some of it / some of the time. Am sure that over time it is working. Feeling validated and proud of myself for sticking with this, of thinking and processing and asking for help.

Many people here have helped me with this, and I am learning that this really does matter - all the things that I am doing really do matter to me and my health.

Just feeling ODD as the depression is so "here" and it takes truck loads of positive things (thoughts, actions, input, processing) to overcome the negative misery, and to stop falling into the negative loops of fear, anxiety and hate etc....

Wishing that I had of spent so much of my life disassociated and wishing that I had sought and accept help in the past.

Mindfulness mediation thought for today: While practicing mindfulness, just let thoughts, emotions and sensations be as they are. Don't reject or pursue anything.

It's so new to me to be doing this - think it works and am sure it is helping me to deal with each small thing as it comes along.

But I still feel ODD!

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I'm ok today. Good even. Maybe. I think I might have even felt happy this afternoon ..? I feel so "emo" when I say this but, I almost don't remember what happy feels like anymore so, I honestly am wondering if happy was what I felt. It didn't feel bad though that's for sure. It felt good. And I liked it.

 

[GreenFrog2]

Alone.
Exhausted. Empty.
Betrayed, broken, belittled.
Proud, positive, pretending, patronized.
shamed, silly, stalked, single, struggling.

 

[KatB]

Depleted. Hyper-aware. Foggy.

 

[ms spock]

I felt tired and weary - often that is underlying anxiety. So I am not sure if I was tired or anxious today.

Mostly I have been okay.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I have been feeling so sad today. A couple of times I actually teared up and that is the closest thing to crying I do. My husband got up and falsly accused me of something I was not doing. It is his dementia. Makes me wonder what tommorow will bring.

He thinks I stay up to watch porno movies. Not!! It gives me a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach and I feel so sick over this. I hate it when he gets like this. I love it when he is sweet. But he has this other side to him that is cruel and hurtful.

I feel so alone. He was doing so good today too. I just feel so sad. It is hard to have ptsd and be a caregiver for my husband too. Mabe that is why I was so sad today. I want to go out and do things and I am so housebound.

Tommorow we will do our taxes and go food shopping. On Friday I will take him to the psych doc. It is time for his check up.

He does not talk anymore and sometimes when he talks he talks really clear. One day at a time. Oh well. Big sigh.

 

[KP the nut]

Mentally I feel okay but physically I feel so tired, I could curl up and sleep. Unfortunately being at work means I can't. I'm also in a bit of physical pain.

I am having my hair cut later and I think when I get home I will have a nap.

(((HUGS)))

 

[Chincho]

I feel really sad and anxious today. A horrible nightmare woke me up and left me feeling this way, but I can't remember what it was about. :(

 

[KP the nut]

I'm still feeling tired, so I am going to care for me and have a nap.

 

[Loloma]

I feel a little sore today, had a growth removed from the back of my neck The anesthetic has worn off.

Never mind I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow.

 

[Britt.f7]

Bit of anxiety because I have an appointment today.