What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Changing4Best]

Panic is normal for PTSDers, but I feel extra panic tonight as someone was outside my window awhile back and woke me by using the hose there to either cool off or shower themself. We have had a bum staying outside our building on and off, sitting in the garden chair out front or at our picnic table which has a roof over it in the back.

Needless to say, I cannot go back to sleep.

 

[ms spock]

I had panic this morning but once I went off to wood working and then helped at a charity BBQ I felt better.

 

[CourageofSnow]

I am feeling angry...

 

[ms spock]

I went walking for an hour so I feel good about that.

 

[Abstract]

Just having overwhelming quick waves of emotion hit me that I can't identity. May be anxiety but not sure. A little different and odd.

 

[shoulderblades]

Feeling down and exhausted tonight. My mind is numb and my head feels like it's full of quiet but persistent white noise. Want to sleep but don't want to sleep. Want to watch a movie but don't want to watch a movie. Can't work out what I want or need. Blah.

 

[amethist]

I am feeling tired, drained and completely exhausted.

Hubby had a melt down yesterday, which had me phoning the police because it was so bad.

This has never happened so bad before and I really hope it does not happen again, it was scary.

 

[Leah123]

Tired, achy, worried.
I keep sharing so much with my t, I'm waiting for her to put the brakes on me, or for me to make a big mistake and say something that bothers her. I can't sleep well and my stress level is a 10 right now. Sigh. I'm planning a relaxing day, mostly, I HOPE it helps, even just a little.

 

[ninja]

This process has been about revival. I think I have turned the corner. :happy:

Feeling healthy, happy, balanced and "myself". Also aware that this state will come and go, but my core exists and is in a much better place overall.

...feeling the need to make some changes.

 

[Britt.f7]

I'm trying hard not to just crawl back into bed. I know I am not tired, or any more tired then I usually am from my chronic illness. Still, after taking a nap, I just want to go back. I have to learn to do something healthy with my mind instead of trying to shut it down.

 

[Abstract]

Disappointed. Much worse self harm than have done in a while. Unable to tell how I feel on the most part. Hopeless. Ashamed of being so faulty.

 

[ms spock]

Dreamt last night of all the stuff ups and mistakes in my life. Woke up did some meditation. Got up ate a boiled egg. Had a bit of panic and wretching. Got up and did some submission writing. I started it and entered a rough first draft. Then I went for a brief walk as the anxiety was high. Came home and put an ice pack on the back of my neck for an hour and half I watched tv. Lots of self hatred coming up. Feelings of hopelessness and helplessness. Part of me doesn't want to try as I might fail and then know I am really worthless. Had a shower and washed my hair. Put a load of washing on. Going to eat some lunch now. Then go out for a free art workshop. Not feeling so good at all. The suicidal ideation came to visit again today but at least I have done a few things.

Struggling with anxiety, feelings of loneliness, that I am a worthless piece of sh*t and so forth.