What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ms spock]

Anxiety coming in waves and it is hard going. Did better today though.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I feel normal and very good. I went to my friends house today with my daughter and we laughed and talked so much. Looking forward to going to Disneyland next Wednesday. I love feeling like this. I had a great day.

 

[CraftyCath]

I am upset, angry and shaken.:cry:

My son's had one of those big arguments that they so enjoy over the fact that the water is brown at the moment. I said it was probably the hot weather and there is nothing we can do about it. Eldest pipes up that it would be OK if we had a shower (which we can't afford) and the youngest argues that the water would still be dirty.

Then my youngest said that my eldest always has a go at me about not having a shower which isn't my fault and then it all just escalated until they had a punch up. When they had stopped punching each other I told my eldest he was not going to Skipton tomorrow, which was to be a treat for him and then I went to my room.

They are 23 and 20. Do they ever grow up? Will they ever take my PTSD into consideration? I doubt it.:(

 

[cherryblossom]

I was feeling positive until the past kicked me in the face. So now I'm a wreck.

 

[Spiderallis]

Massive wave of relief hit as the inspector drove away- ooh, that's nice. Things hurt and I'm exhausted, but it's okay- I've got plenty of time to rest and relax.

 

[rainy_daze]

Exhausted, sad, depressed, suicidal (rational part of me has woken up, so handling those thoughts). Physically sore. Hopeless? Maybe. A bit angry. I think I have a strong sense of shame at the moment too. Maybe some jealousy? And a whole endless well of guilt. Tapping into these emotions, naming them and knowing how they've appeared is difficult; maybe I'm more used to ignoring them or completely giving in to the depression (letting it take over).

Lack of sleep + Lack of food + Feeling like my friend died yesterday when in reality that was many years ago + No money + No inspiration on how to have fun + Hate the way I look + Overwhelming pressure from myself and perceiving that others are disappointed in me or I'm a complete drain to them (even though I ask for little from them) = A bad day.

Phew; that's hard to share but glad I have a place to. Healing vibes through the internet to all who want them :hug: I hope you can all be kind to yourselves on the worst days.

 

[who am i kim]

Felling better today than yesterday, P doc day appointments take there emotional toll on me. So much grief to unleash within me, that has been kept locked away for so long. :cry:

 

[Tanishq]

Uncertainty and I am scared.

 

[Froggie]

Feeling happy because I won't have chimo and neupogen for 3 weeks ! A real vacation time for me as I will be able to do things with my grand-kids and kids without feeling pain nor ukyness.

 

[shoulderblades]

Motherf*ckin' drained. Had to spend 4½ hours in Centrelink today (social security office - the Australian equivalent of hell) because Centrelink, or Centrefail as I like to call it, stuffed up all of my payments. The anxiety I was feeling was through the roof. They had no water fountain to drink from, no vending machines to get a snack, no toilets, and the heating was cranked up to Let's Make It Literally Feel Like Fire And Brimstone.

 

[Lionheart]

I feel tired and insomniacal (is that a word?) :p I've been wrestling with psychological 'wounding'. I am struggling to focus on positive attributes, but think I am "too close to the forest to see the trees"!!!

My core fears were triggered the other day and I am still reeling from it. I feel hurt that I fell for the mind games that abuse perps played on me when I was younger. I wish I could go back in time, knowing what I know now, and befriend my child self. The psychological abuse I suffered in the past was cruel and vicious. I feel sad and angry!

 

[franciemarnie]

Woke too early feeling empty and sad and a little angry and unmoored. My left leg hurt a lot. I worked on creative project which distracted me in a good way and made me tired enough to go back to sleep.

Woke feeling sad and empty again with a painful leg. Before meditation I wrote a list of what I was grateful for which included this forum and felt better. Meditation settled me down and I stopped feeling so empty and sad.

Kept working on creative project, which made me feel satisfied and almost content. Leg began to hurt much worse so I took salt bath and it went away.

Evening was nice watching To Rome With Love. Laughed a bit. Replanted plant cuttings and tied them up to post loosely with little pink ribbons. Felt joy for a little bit. Kept working on my project but now I am tired and apprehensive of going to bed. Then I have no distraction from how I am feeling. Arghh!

Will try to feel my body and name my feelings while I lay there. That makes me sleepy if I don't search for the reasons why, just feel the feelings instead.