Earlier today I felt good was on top of my game called work, but tonight I feel violated because someone busted out the glass on my car, so got to go get a new door. And the comments of g/f’s on taking the flower back, the gift of the was more for me than it was for her, it was me giving something to someone I care for.
But it bites me and now I’m resentful towards her and the flower. I shouldn’t have tried to make myself feel good by sharing. I should have just gone and bought a candy bar and indulge in it. There wouldn’t be that let down and being talked to like a juvenile child!
Sometimes I wonder why I even try sometimes.
What’s the use?
All that I’m going to get in return is hatefulness.
Interrogated on why I am doing such things, I don’t want to say because it’s invading on my emotions, why can’t I do something that makes me happy. No! She has to go and make it a bad thing, make me regret doing it, and feel guilty about trying to be happy instead of a miserable sap!
Tonight I’m feeling violated
Hated
Hurt
Guilt
Anger
Resentment
And the feeling of crying is coming on
Side note can’t tell her about glass or else I will incur the wrath of woman!