What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Spiderallis]

Hugs to anyone and everyone who'd like one- sorry to see so many struggles going on.

Yesterday got a bit heavy at 'T-time' so I'm still worn down from that. Also feeling grateful that I've got a few people in my life who understand what it means to have a heavy, hard session of therapy. That's my positive thing for today, I'm still working on those.

 

[Anrish]

I'm feeling nervous and anxious. I got a response from the trauma ambulance but the still have to test whether I fit into their study's frame or not. ...so, I might have a new therapy place but I will have to wait what they will tell me after the first appointments. I never was a victim of a lot of physical violence, it was more the mental violence...I'm afraid.

 

[roaminggnome]

I am feeling anxiety and totally fed up. There is very little that can be done about my bad reaction to Zyprexa. My legs are really swollen and the pain is severe. My joints are creaking and cracking. I can't stay in one position long enough to sleep. I'm trying tramadol for the pain because the motrin caused an IBS flare and the tylenol with codeine only took the edge off the pain. I can't take prednisone because I get suicidal on it. Nothing can ever be easy. I'm so fed up. I see my pdoc tomorrow and I want to tell her off for so many things.

 

[Anrish]

@roaminggnome : I'm sorry to hear that you have such a bad time. I wish you all the best for your doctor's appointment tomorrow and that she will be able make things better for you.

 

[ms spock]

@roaminggnome I had such a bad reaction to Zyprexia I almost didn't make it. I so sympathise with what you are going through at this time. I really do.

Feeling a mildly stressed because our walk too a lot longer than I expected and I wanted to get some work done this morning.

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling determined to be present and not dissociate today.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I feel positive today, because I took very good care of myself and accomplished so many different things. I feel good today and have been watching some good movies as well.

 

[roaminggnome]

@Anrish and Ms Spock Thanks for the well wishes and sympathy. I don't know how the manufacturers keep zyprexa on the market with the side effects it has. My family doctor increased the lasix and put me on tramadol for the pain. The tramadol worked yesterday for the pain. Finally some relief. So I'm feeling better this morning.

 

[jaccat]

Right now: angry, confrontational, not in a good place to talk to people. Like I've wasted this day avoiding what I need to do and instead unneccesarily upset myself finding a poem I wrote a few years ago. Felt grief, sadness, that quickly switched to plain p***ed off at the world and all the people in it.

 

[holdenmonty]

Today I'm feeling insecure I guess you could say. But at least I have realized something today. I'm feeling insecure because I have realized that the reason why I tend to not share my struggles/issues with others even the ones I love is because it has taken me so long and so much work to not judge myself for having PTSD and feeling ashamed for having PTSD that when I share my struggles/issues and I don't feel validated by those I love then I feel like all the work that I have done on not judging myself slowly is being destoryed because when I don't feel validated then I all the different negative thoughts towards myself for having PTSD come back and those negative thoughts feel like they are validated.

 

[roaminggnome]

I'm feeling validated. My pdoc actually listened to me earlier and acted in my best interest. Yes I'm allergic to zyprexa and had a bad reaction to it. But I'm also having a reaction to seroquel which is in the same class as zyprexa. So I can't take any drug from that class. I stop the seroquel today. Hopefully the reaction will go away.

 

[ms spock]

I can't take any drug from that class either @roaminggnome.

I feel sleepy and tired.