What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Kunoichi]

yay mercy glad to hear :)

tired, numb, shocky, dissociated,

 

[Cindy]

disappointed
lonely
hurt
empty
angry
frustrated
stupid

 

[Mercy]

I felt the need to isolate completely today. I didn't go to church or to a small home bible group that meets on Sundays. I stayed in my nighty and robe all day. I read and rested.

I took good care of me today.

Feel gentle

 

[sallysellsseashells]

I feel cheated:

I went to a Doctor today to get a refferal to a Psychologist. She said, "do you want me to make you a 'mental health' plan?" I'm not sure what she was trying to do. I've had one of those before, but I would rather see the Psychologist before having a plan. I just wanted to get the refferal. She called reception and got me an appointment for my own Doctor for tomorrow (he was full up today, and they made exception to fit me in tomorrow).

I gave her the name of the Psychologist, and she refused to look up her details. She told me to come back better prepared, with more research. I told her I had researched her, which is why I chose this particular Psychologist to try working with.

I was out of there in 5 minutes. It was a 15 minute appointment. I signed the Medicare form (thinking to myself, 'I shouldn't do this, but if I have conflict with her while I'm dizzy and sick and faint, and then start accusing her of something, she might send me to hospital for drug treatment')... I know I don't pay for it... but I feel ripped off. And I think she's ripping off the government... I feel like I've been taken advantage of (in a mild, but still very wrong way).

She took me in before seeing someone who was apparently there for 45 minutes waiting (her word against my observations). I was there waiting less than 45 minutes, and in that time everybody was seen already... so I don't know who she's talking about. Can she get paid for having multiple patients in the same slot?

There were people after me (who came in after me).

It just seemed very strange.

I was late for the appointment so they put someone else in my slot, and I waited for the next one... fair enough. It's just that she took advantage of me, because I was in a bad mental state... so she can take advantage of the government... which helps us (in Australia).

Any Advice? I'd like to report her, but am not sure whom to. Or am I responsible because I signed it?

 

[Kunoichi]

Feeling: nothing

physically feeling: tired

Thoughts: I'm a failure, a nothing...yet i want to keep fighting...so tired of fighting tho

 

[Tinyflame]

Dear Kunoichi,

If possible, try to go 15 minutes- or 10 -or 5- without being taken in by the negative thoughts, Don't think of being tired, possibly try to think, "In 10 minutes (or whatever) I can think about that". It will take a lot of effort/practise but it gets easier, more familiar- more "practised".

And grounding techniques, mindfulness- look at details of something around you, or touch it- colors, textures smell, sounds, whatever.
Concentrate on just proper breathing.

I find the "touch part" helps immensely, too.
You're doing great, just "baby steps", one at a time.

Take care.
:Hug_emoticon:

 

[goingonhope]

Feeling anxious as all hell. I value well spent time and have one to two dozen different directions to go in and take responsibility and any given time. Much of my home & /work-life efforts, I feel has been undermined, unrecognized, taken for granted and I've been depreciated. I don't have the time of day for complaints, criticism and destructive displaced anger.

I am forcing myself time to eat a bologne sandwhich, to calm me down. I am reminding myself to breath, have taken 1 or 2, 10 min. time-outs from everthing to meditate, and now this time to identify how I feel.

I feel nervous, shaken, still anxious, hurt, afraid and sad. Always setting forth to continue..., continue..., continue, regardless of how much I do, or how the fck I feel.

I feel hurt and angry.

 

[Anonymoose]

Angry. Frustrated. Lighthearted. Happy. Tired. Silly.

 

[Cindy]

bruised and battered, tired, empty, angry, hopeless, lost

 

[goingonhope]

Today I'm feeling scared, compulsive, regretful, weary, down, depression, anxiety, lonliness, scatter-brained, self-judgemental and selfish.

Let's see if there's any positive feelings in this day: Felt relief through being honest with myself, feel anticipation of seeing my children soon, felt enjoyment this morning in our routine of helping the children prepare for school, felt relief in the peace between other family members that I too felt and appreciated this morning.

 

[Kunoichi]

Junebug,

Thankyou sweety! ^_^ Your encouragement is immensley helpful.

Today: well had a breakdown earlier cuz of negative "programmed" thoughts

But I was able to feel LOVED today when my hubby and i were finally able to be intimate...I almost dissociated and flashbacked a couple times but I kept shoving it away and hubby kept telling me he loved me and was there for me and giving me encouragement so that way I could stay present. So a breakthrough I think!

Feel: Loved! still tired tho cuz not sleeping but I'm still happy ^_^

 

[cragger65]

Worried, and Scared S***less

I'm feeling very scared and vulnerable today. I'm having to face the fact that I'm never going to get better the way I'm going about things. My whole life is avoidance, I realize.

I called CMHA today about any groups they run, and got a positive direction on (possibly) an anger management group and a depression group at Community Care. I have dealt with them once before and was left with a very positive impression, I am really hoping they offer what I need this winter. Time to face the music.