What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Cindy]

disconnected from everything
chaotic
alone
emotional pain
out of sequence - fragmented and confused
depressed

 

[goingonhope]

Feeling entirely too frustrated with the fact I cannot sleep and tommorrow the family has plans to go Christmas shopping. Do appreciate and feel some relief though from last night's experience of hell on earth, and from yesterday's depression and stress, and from those most difficult days preceding yesterday.

Feel disappointed and sad that I missed my husband's work Christmas party today. I just look and have felt so much like sh't, I didn't want to embarass him.

 

[Mercy]

thankful for the forum.
holiday pressure.
bad isolation-can't get out at nightfall and after at all.
feel left out of the good things in my faith life
because I cannot get to evening services.
deadline pressure for icon commission due in Feb.
haven't been able to get into my studio...?
overwhelmed by daily demands.
semi-suicidal, thoughts only.
feels like life is just too hard.
spacey
zoned out

 

[nie]

Today I feel anxious. We are on our way to visit my mom.

 

[Cindy]

relieved
empty
focused
pressured
anxious
back on track

 

[Tinyflame]

Tired. Adrift.

 

[Tinyflame]

Vulnerable. Burdened. Reisgned. Unsure. Alone. Sad. Contemplative. Distracted. Thankful.

 

[Kunoichi]

Vulnerable. Sad. Pain. Happy. Tired. Relaxed....How the heck do I feel all these things at once????? So wierd!

 

[midi]

Nothing.

...

 

[FlameTachiku]

Frustrated
fight
strong
annoyed
did i mention frustrated

i beat it
it morphs
something new
to fight
again
agian?
yes again fool
can this possibly shock again??????
oh yes

well yes
i guess
you see it has never showed
in this form
last time it did this and i did that
before that almost kill me
why not
been there how many times?
nothing new there

how to win
it always changes
nothing is solid

what is it
what does it look like
who knows
it is what?

only pain, loss. buried in
new behaviors
symptoms


I am angry
what next????
Ahhhhhg do i really want to know
learning again
get up
fight


I hate this!!!!


So i will go to work
smile
put out fires
take care of others

will a flash of anger come out
people think i am kind and strong
geez---my limits are at the surface
two females down

no one will believe them
Flame?
she would not attack anyone

the first wants to be best buds
does she like pain
what
the next
is hideing

others look at them like they have two heads
what r u talking about?
Flame?
She is nothing like that

OMG
yes! i am when triggered
shall i explain
perhaps not
it may cost my job
again

sweet
joy

 

[cragger65]

Midi, I'm sorry you're feeling that way. Sometimes "nothing" is best?

Flame, I can relate. I know it probably doesn't help, but your post seems like a good start for a poem - maybe it's the way you've written it out.

Me, I'm feeling agitated. My niece's birthday is today, and I'm not feeling up to the crowd that will be there.

 

[2notbedefeated]

Like a roller coaster, up and down and all around again
Shakey this morning, quite anxious
Triggered by the death of my son's hamster (crazy I know, but I'm super sensitive)
Worried, anxious 'cause I know he wil be crushed & I don't like to see my kids in pain
Totally surprised, because I had a couple of enjoyable hours with my 9yr daughter, She's a control freak (like her mom) & we almost never agree & argue alot
This is the first day I have had any sense of encouragement
due in part to finding this forum and realizing I'm not alone in my craziness right now
Thank you:)