What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[goingonhope]

cragger 65, Well done on the phone call. We can work with our fear when it motivates us to make and take positive chooses and steps forward for us. I really would like to hear more about this as you follow thru in this direction and that what you need, you do seek and find this winter, not any further away. The sooner the better.

Wishing you well, Well done, and please let us know once the process begins. Another words, keep us posted.

:thumbs-up

Sincerely,
Hope

 

[Kunoichi]

CONGRATZ cragger! That's a huge step! *hugs we are here when you need it hun

 

[Cindy]

worn out
helpless
angry
isolated
vulnerable
frustrated
distraught
aggressive

 

[Dylan]

I am horribly depressed.

I've done enough work that I don't have the suicidal ideation anymore, but at least then I felt like I had a way out! I know how this sounds; who'd ever think one would be whining about NOT being suicidal.

I've always been very active, very athletic and, while I did "use" food/sugar to dampen anxiety/stress, it didn't get out of control. Well, now it's out of control and I have no idea how to stop it. Diets and all that shit address symptoms, not cause, so they don't work. I was told that if I get enough support, the overeating will back off. I'm starting to think I'm one great big Grand Canyon of need and incompetency and there's not enough support in the universe for me. My clothes are all "sausage" tight and I feel like shit.

I hate my job. We only have one car and my partner is a frigging hermit so any support I could get is cut off by having to get home (we live 30 miles out of town). I hate that my life has turned into having a job for MONEY rather than what inspires me, even what I'm GOOD at. I hate it that I have no confidence in my intelligence and ability. I hate it that my eyesight is getting worse. I hate it that my partner and I are almost never on the same page about ****ing anything. I hate it that my life is a mess. I hate it that I'm fat and uncomfortable. I hate it that I've been eating salad every day and yet am getting sick. I hate it that I'm here at a job I don't give a flying **** about. I hate it that I feel like a failure. I hate it that I turned out this way.

 

[Kunoichi]

dylan,

I'm sorry things are so rough now :(

I know you are in a job you don't like...is there anyway you can start searching on how to do something you DO like? Also maybe talking to your partner about how things are going on (like a heart to heart)?

*hugs hang in there hun

 

[2notbedefeated]

This is my first time to post here: I feel like one huge tangle of stuff, like a tornado
My feelings yesterday and today
major confusion, feeling out of control
continual agitation, and major frustration
going bizerk at times, impatient
so so sad, unmotivated
scared, ashamed, guilty, anxious and fearful
like a ping pong ball, volcanic, and shattered

 

[morgan]

Welcome to the forum 2not.

 

[FlameTachiku]

Hang in ther 2 not it will get better and welcome.:hello:

 

[Kunoichi]

I'm feeling great today! :)

 

[Dylan]

I feel happy that it's Friday and that I have NINE DAYS OFF coming up for the holiday.
I feel happy that I did some heavy work to "take out some emotional trash" - I feel lighter.
I feel more in control, more balanced, more respons-ABLE, more accountable to ME today.

The self acceptance and grounding work are paying off.

I feel happy it's a gray wintery day...snow is on the way!

-Dylan

 

[Leda]

Today I´m mostly relieved - and tired. My two year old grandson has been seriously ill and has spent the last 3 weeks in hospital. Now he is starting to recover and he will be home by Christmas.

 

[cragger65]

Thank God Leda, that must have been very stressful.

I am just plain ol' exhausted today. I haven't been sleeping my usual this past week, and last night I was up all night until 7:00am this morning with (good) ideas rushing through my head. Not complaining!! I don't mind at all trading a tired day for a very good day. If that's the price, hey, I'll pay it once in a while.