What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Anrish]

@expectingbetter : Thank you. ;) ....even if being satisfied is somehow embarassing...:whistling: ...and also distant is fine because my T helped me to it. :rolleyes:

 

[expectingbetter]

We will learn eventually how not to be embarassed over something we feel or do :hug:

 

[Ronin]

Breathing, so alright.

 

[VioletButterfly]

Sending butterflies to all of us who are struggling today. I see a few entries above mine, so best to you.

As for me, I'm feel physically rather like I've been hit by a virtual bus. I think it's all of the worry and emotion of the temp job, being worried about my agency's reaction and then 9/11 emotions running amok over the past week. Feeling like my head is in a vice or something. Yuck! Glad not to be in the job still, but then also mad that I keep running the details through my mind. Feeling glad that when I retuned the key to my agency yesterday that the manager and recruiter both stepped out to meet with me and tell me in no uncertain terms that they were for me and encouraged me to always feel free to leave a business when I felt uncomfortable, EOD. I wish my mind would obsess on this and not on the actual engagements with that man - ugh, brining up icky abuse memories I'm trying to keep in Pandora's box. Guess I'm sending a butterfly my way as well. VB

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Feeling tired and I feel somewhat okayish.

 

[Sandstone]

somewhat okayish

Love that - I so often feel just that

 

[Spiderallis]

Physically wrecked, mentally hazy and very much aware that my brain is misfiring.

 

[intothelight]

Irritable and depressed...........

 

[VioletButterfly]

@Spiderallis - I think we're kind of on a similar page. Sorry to hear about that! I hope the wind changes the direction of your sails soon.

((((((((@intothelight )))))))

Physically, I'm feeling not so good, tired, and very foggy brained. Can't seem to get my thoughts together and am struggling to do a few business-related things today. There will be no fighting with insurance companies today. Can't go there.

It's my fault, nutrition is faltering because addiction is holding the wheel. I keep trying though, so I feel a little bit of tenacious VB is still in the game and will keep fighting as long as I can. Feeling confused and a bit directionless. I'm angry that I'm letting the addiction win right now because I know how dangerous it is. Maybe that's where bewildered comes into play. So, it's up to me to use the tools I have, to seek out support as addiction cannot be remedied in isolation (you're only as sick as your secrets), and to focus on what I'm putting in the "win" column of my life. I need to build new, happy, and health memories and relationships. God help me with my healing. Thanks for reading and try to think at least one good thought today everyone. VB

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling relieved that I did try my best and was let down again, have to readjust my expectations for a reality check. Frustrated.

 

[VioletButterfly]

Way off the mark today - fuzzy-headed, upset. Had horrible waking, spinning with anxiety dreams. Nice, huh?! Rather happy that I did my best while in the midst of all of that in trying to redirect my thinking as noted above by putting things in the positive column to challenge myself out of the bad dreams. It's the oddest state of mind to be in. It feels a little crazy when I'm in that zone. Awake now though and still feeling off. Oh well, here's to trying to shake it off today.

 

[jaccat]

Tired and disillusioned with work, but relieved I have 2 days off now.