What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[RVA21]

I am also very glad I could split the difference between what I needed to do, wanted to do, and realized what I didn't have to do. Even if one thing I should have done to make my life easier I couldn't manage to do.

Bizarre as it sounds- of all things that could be on my mind- instead for some reason I just feel sad for that little Koala bear Lewis, who's cute little face and burnt nose and cry is in my mind/ heart's eye. I suppose I thought he'd make it, with all that effort. Plus the news said he would. :( :cry: If only it were so easy to grieve my own losses as it is to grieve a little bear on the other side of the world (obviously for more than the little bear, poor people). Supposedly the day he died it finally rained.

I think people would think I'm nuts, to feel badly over a bear. But, well, nuts I am then, I guess.

Sorry to hear about the poor bear, that's very sad :( :hug:

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @Lionheart777 and @Lumos :hug: I don't feel so silly then, thanks to you both.

Well I guess it just looks like a stark contrast to caring for (all) people, and hence the environment and animals with it. I mean, an animal suffering is awful to watch too, when (like people) it's affected by the people around them/ care or lack of care, consequences of how we treat or neglect each other and the environment.

I think I got blind-sided because the news said he'd be ok, didn't occur to me otherwise. Which also sounds stupid, I know.

But, on the other hand, there you have a woman who risked her life to get him out of the fire, and many would call that crazy, too. I think there are a lot of people who don't want to see destruction and harm, and/ or care deeply for people, animals and the environment. It;s really a heartbreaking situation to even see a wisp of how so many are suffering, and so much fear and uncertainty and grief you know they must have.

Thank you. :hug:

On a different note, I had 2, o 3 (?,- lost track) people spontaneously, and an additional one by e-mail this morning, call me by the nickname closest to me/ only those closest to me use and then not always, and it feels/ felt good. Maybe because they are such nice people. I think it's kind of cool they came up with it, not knowing.

 

[RVA21]

@Tinyflame It's not silly, it shows you are a caring person. I love animals and can't bear to see them suffer. I donate to an animal rescue charity every year :)

 

[Ellabella44]

Feeling a bit excited and hopeful. I found out that one of the other women in my gaming group has ptsd and bipolar. She was diagnosed years ago. We exchanged info so we could talk.

 

[RVA21]

Feeling really happy, content and relaxed.

 

[Mee]

I feel hungry. Both physically and emotionally.
I am about to have some pie.

 

[VioletButterfly]

Nervous, anxious, exhausted, a bit desolate but I'm trying to work on that one, like I want to run away and seriously thinking about how to do that, and fed up.

 

[Lionheart]

I am reflective of the past... the mistakes and poor choices I have made because of the misguided beliefs and challenges arising from childhood trauma. I feel understanding and a degree of self-forgiveness.

 

[Tinyflame]

Just to say hugs to all who could use them, @VioletButterfly @Lionheart777 and all, and @Lumos thank you. :hug:

 

[RVA21]

Thanks @Tinyflame :hug:

 

[arich62]

I feel emotionally exhausted. I feel like I could just stare at the walls for the next several hours with voices running in and out of my head. Emotions are lots of fear. In my head I hear the voices of my sister yelling, screaming at me and badgering me. I hear my mom complaining to me still. I want to keep my mind busy by reading a book, by playing guitar, by making a video journal to a friend. But I can't enjoy doing anything for myself if I can't relax and feel constantly bothered. I need to work on solutions. If I can come up with solutions and an escape route then I can begin to feel more positive.

 

[Ellabella44]

@arich62 have you tried assigning an impossible task to them? For example I wanted to create something but it required using a glue gun which is something that I was ridiculed for by my step father. With my therapist i set them up in a garbage dump where they have to build a sand castle out of grains of sand they find under all of the trash there. And I was able to get my task done.

I'm feeling that I've found a spot I need to heal. Something I felt I had cut out of me so I could survive the things I did. I need to find some kind of emotional piece that will fit into the hole that was left behind. Its probably too late to heal into original condition. But I'm in therapy and on meds so I can at least try. Maybe see if I can find someone who does reki after I start working again. My step sister did a few sessions for me before she bailed on me and she found where my trauma damage is focused.