I feel like I have been abandoned by someone who is very important to me. The reality is that she has been a bit ill and is the primary caretaker for her mother. I guess I just feel lonely and a little lost.
Surprised and kind of tickled yesterday by a spontaneous, genuine hug from someone who doesn't (even before covid), and with witnesses. Meant a lot. Reminded me I miss hugs, they seem like a long-ago-normal-time.