So good to hear Ladee :hug: .
Idk, grateful for some things, not grateful enough for others; disingenuous gratitude for feeling like I should be grateful for things which however are part of what I wish I could replace in my life, not invest more in. Doubtful, mistrusting; wondering if mistrusting is correct or just my brain deteriorating?; thankful course nearly complete but worried about final exam; tired and unable to recall what I'm supposed to be living for; tired of the past's memories and influence, but resigned it's not likely to disappear; can't recall what I thought years ago, when life or the future seemed possible, or what was the goal? What made me happy? Now I think I'm numb. Don't appreciate what I have. Feel lost, too. How does one describe it?
I suppose I feel pointless, discouraged, tired, struggling, sad, empty, alone, and trapped. And guilty for not feeling more grateful.
Idk, grateful for some things, not grateful enough for others; disingenuous gratitude for feeling like I should be grateful for things which however are part of what I wish I could replace in my life, not invest more in. Doubtful, mistrusting; wondering if mistrusting is correct or just my brain deteriorating?; thankful course nearly complete but worried about final exam; tired and unable to recall what I'm supposed to be living for; tired of the past's memories and influence, but resigned it's not likely to disappear; can't recall what I thought years ago, when life or the future seemed possible, or what was the goal? What made me happy? Now I think I'm numb. Don't appreciate what I have. Feel lost, too. How does one describe it?
I suppose I feel pointless, discouraged, tired, struggling, sad, empty, alone, and trapped. And guilty for not feeling more grateful.
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