What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[bittersweet]

(((((to all who need a hug)))))

I myself am better than I was the past couple days but still a little depressed/anxious. I'm angry at my job for many reasons. First, I found out my boss is slowly limiting my grooming appointments so that I eventually have none and quit since he is closing up this shop and opening a new one. Why not be a man and tell me you need to lay me off? My one co-worker is giving me crap because I took ONE day off to spend my anniversary with my husband and she's trying to give me a guilt trip because of it. Unfortunately for her it's only pissing me off not making me feel bad. Then, my only appointment for today never showed up and I waited at work like a moron waiting for them to come. I got fed up and left. (Inconsiderate) People suck!

 

[kimberley dawn]

a black hole.
empty
tired of being sad
tired
nothing

 

[CaringMomma]

Teary, depressed, and in need of a hug! So many things waying on my mind and I can't seem to focus on just one thing. I wish that I could just get off this rollercoaster of life for a while. It's not that I have a tough life, it's just that I don't want to feel. My hubby, daughter and I have had a rough year and we are all trying to recover.

In addition to my PTSD struggle, my mother-in-law and father-n-law passed away late last year, my husbands business has really been hit hard by this economy, I lost my job back in January, our home was on foreclosure and now it's not (but we're not sure why), I'm mourning the loss of the dream of having a normal relationship with my mom and sister, my daughter has had some pretty tough things happen at school (she's a freshman in high school), I've tested about 6 differant meds over the past year that have caused all kinds of bad side affects (but have finally found the right one), and ...

I miss my mom so much, but she causes so much grief. I find it very difficult to call her because all I can do is listen to her ramblings and offer her support, but the moment I try to share with her she doesn't want to talk anymore. And, I can't talk to her about my PTSD because it will cause her grief.

I'm hurting!

 

[Sandra]

Happy I got my lighthouse book today but haven't opened it yet. Still busy putting my meds away I just picked up at the drug store.

 

[Marie E.]

(((((CM)))))

 

[Sandra]

Well I glanced at the book and was disappointed that none in my area were pictured only mentioned in the back of the book. Some beautiful lighthouses shown in the book though.

 

[jo may]

(((Sazza))) thank you very sweet.

Today I was feeling ok, and than I demaged my hand so it is killing.

Also in pain everywhere else wahich is getting very old now. My mood is swing crazy right now and I'm really feeling so sorry for the hubby. But than he has had a few swings of his own lately in mood I mean.

Merry christmas lol just want to cry.

 

[The Albatross]

Tired
Frustrated
Worried
Wimpy
I feel like my body is betraying me... and I'm pissed that I'm doing the best I can and I popped up bad on some tests.
Confused... is this bad genes or PTSD... and either way I wish it would stop. Just top and let me feel healthy for a decade.

 

[Marie E.]

I won't be here for awhile as my VA is coming Home!!!!!!!!!!! He been in jail for false charges.

 

[lifeguard17]

Today I feel very sad. I can't focus on anything, and with 5000 words due on Tuesday this isn't great timing!

 

[KP the nut]

Tired, aching and sore BUT surviving

 

[ms spock]

I'm feeling like no matter what I do, I will never escape my childhood. That poison is inside me, killing me slowly. No matter where I turn I come back to it, because it is there inside me. It is too endemic, my mother did too good a job. You would have to rip every internal organ out of me and replace them with new ones to get rid of that poison. And it would still be in my brain. I can't escape ever.

I so totally relate to this post. You express it so well. Thank you. I just get that you are surviving my struggle and it is a weight off my shoulders.