What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[The Albatross]

I feel sick to my stomach.
I feel moderately disturbed by memory fragments that ran in my head most of the night.
I feel tired and didn't sleep well.
I feel reluctant to start this week... but it's here anyway.
I physically felt a lot of histamine responses last night.
I feel that I can accept these things and get on with my day anyway.
I feel some trepidation but I made a right decision and will offer to help my MIL short term til her house is clean enough for a regular housekeeper.
I feel I can do what is necessary and be with her without judgment or criticism and hope she'll reciprocate.

 

[wife of]

Utter confusion.

Not equal to the task set before me.

Scared.

:cry:

 

[The Albatross]

(((wife of))) .... turn it on it's ear. "I will do the best I can and that's all I can do." That's how I get through on tough times... if I'm doing the best I can... then that's got to be good enough unless or until someone else steps in to carry the ball for a while.

 

[Lionheart]

After getting moved into the new house, (3 or so months ago), I am finally getting settled in and finding things that were packed away in the attic.

Today, I hit the jackpot and found several binders full of old therapy notes. :) Now, I am ready to brush up on the coping tools that helped bring me out of the "pit of traumatic despair"...so, as you might guess, I am happy to have found them and...

...as I begin looking back at the progress I have made over the years, very grateful.

 

[bittersweet]

I'm feeling tired and depressed but slightly proud of myself that I was able to kind of sleep last night without my husband being with me. He text and called me throughout the day/night yesterday but every time we spoke I had to fight back tears. I guess this shows him how utterly incapable I am of ever cheating on him right? lol

 

[PookieBear]

I feel hopeful today. I had the opportunity to speak to my fiancee last night and I believe we made progress. Since she has moved out, I have been sad and upset because I cannot believe I hurt her so bad. I feel as if I was trying to control her because I could not control myself. I feel opening up, accepting I need help, talking about my issues, and being willing to fix myself, to make our lives better, is what I want and will do. I feel good given the circumstances I am facing.

 

[KP the nut]

but slightly proud of myself that I was able to kind of sleep last night without my husband being with me. He text and called me throughout the day/night yesterday but every time we spoke I had to fight back tears.

(((Bittersweet))), I feel for you, I really do. My H is often away, I knew how he felt when I was at my worst and he had to go away. He hated having to leave me, he worried the whole time and phoned often. I've put the phone down and could do nothing but sit and cry.

I can promise you my friend, you will come through this. Take it in small bits. Do whatever is needed to help you. I spent a lot of time here on the forum talking with friends. I would plan nice evenings. H knew I wouldn't cook for myself, so he would ensure there were nice homemade meals in the freezer which I just had to nuke in the microwave. I would plan to watch some TV, have a glass of wine (although I was strict with myself that it was just one or two max). I would sleep with the dogs.

In fact whilst he was away, I was just extra kind to myself. I didn't commit to doing to much, hey, getting out of bed and showered was a success.

Then comes the nice part - his return. It would take me almost the whole time he was away but I would have the house tidy, I'd light candles, have him a nice beer in the fridge and I would have a meal ready but most of all was that hug to know that all was well again.

Take care
KP

PM me if you need to talk.

 

[The Albatross]

Today, I hit the jackpot and found several binders full of old therapy notes. :) Now, I am ready to brush up on the coping tools that helped bring me out of the "pit of traumatic despair"...so, as you might guess, I am happy to have found them ...

OOohhhh, Lionheart... hopefully as you go through them you might consider sharing some tidbits on the depression thread you started. I use typing as a way to focus and retain what I want to remember and we an all learn some more stuff??

 

[CaringMomma]

(((((wife of))))) I truly hope that you will allow yourself some grace. I know it can be scary to look at that wall (a task) and think, I will never be able to get over it or there's just no way. Please, be kind to yourself and remember that you can only do what you can do. Doing this, for me anyway, has often times given me the strength I didn't know I had. I am here for you, if you need to talk! Hang in there!

 

[LostBear325]

I feel :

- anxious
- fearful
- nervous about flashbacks during class
- unmotivated

 

[CaringMomma]

((((((LostBear))))))

 

[Loloma]

How do I feel, really don't know... sad I guess and a bit numb.

My back is slowly improving, but then again pain killers work wonders don't they. What am I doing here, I don't know. Except there are so many wonderful people here and I love you all. Sounds mushy doesn't it. Well at least I can be honest with you all without being attacked.

Wish everyone a good day.