What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Bubba]

High, high, high anxiety today! And I'm kinda pissed about it. Why is it that anytime something somewhat stressful comes about, I feel it? I know, I know - that's PTSD and it will be a part of me forever (sigh).

I emailed my boss last night to ask about working remote one week a month so I can go spend some time with my new BF and get to know him better (he lives 8 hours away). My boss hasn't emailed me back yet and I am totally freaking out about it. I was hoping to just get a simple "that's fine" reply back - but I have a feeling he's going to want to talk to me about it. I know my boss cares about me and thinks of me like family - but gosh darn... the anxiety is terrible.

I hate confrontation. I hate trying to explain myself, because I can't get the right words out and then they don't get the full picture and they think I'm just naive (talking about my family and friends).

And other things that I am dealing with:

• getting rid of the car from hell (oh yeah - my parents sold me my mom's car, 2001 Mazda Protoge with 39K miles on it, for $3500. now I have to get rid of that other stupid car my ex-h left me with).
• helping my daughter get a full time job so that she can start helping me financially (she's 20 almost 21 and lives with me)
• hoping my son (who does not live with me) gets a better job than what he has now
• telling my family about my new BF - I know they are going to freak
• my boss owes me over $3000 - we've been waiting for the government to hurry up and spend their year end money

My back is killing me today - usually a sign of stress. I didn't sleep well at all last night. I just want the anxiety to go away.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling better than yesterday. I do not have anxiety today and am glad about that because I ran out of meds for anxiety. Waiting for the meds to come in the mail. Husband is doing better today. He is brushing his teeth so he is back to normal. I feel greatly relieved. I am feeling much better.

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Feeling like a ding bat. Making stupid mistakes today, funny, but stupid. So much to do, take in, and learn. Feeling thankful I have a job though! Feeling thankful for my boss.

On top of that, I am feeling so confused about life and the direction mine has taken. Feeling way out of control, very lost, and lacking in plans. So weird to be in this spot. Not at all where I ever thought I would be. Maybe I am in shock and/or grieving?

 

[CraftyCath]

Still in pain, so very tired but getting better.

Mentally stronger than I have been, fighting negativity.

 

[Loveneverfails]

I feel alright, but like I could sleep a full 24 hours.

 

[JustBe]

Headache (jaw clenching in sleep)

 

[Charmedone]

Feeling incredibly cold and shaking like a leaf, ears are ringing too and the hurt has gone from pain to numbness...

 

[p-no]

(((P-no))) I hope your day ends better than it started :inlove:

Thank you, Movin'On. It has because it's ended. :)

You have been a light on the forum for me lately. Thank you! (((Movin'On)))

 

[JustBe]

Charmedone, :eek:

It sounds like you may have an infection or the flu? Take care.

 

[Tanishq]

Cold has gone, but feeling little feverish. Weather has started fluctuating. Perhaps winter is about to come.

 

[Charmedone]

Feeling really tired, cold, shaky but blessed to have the most amazing friends.

 

[JustBe]

Feeling scared and helpless this morning.