What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Philippa]

Feeling just so damn ...just disbelief. I get the feeling that my blood relatives have now decided that I'm the one who burnt my bridges with them, and that I have left THEM with no other choice but to completely forget me. They have turned this around fully to be me being the toxic daughter who has brought them nothing but misery...and cast me out, even though I'm the one that cut THEM off.

It's confounding??:confused::confused:

Yes it is a special kind of rejection allright...and an extremely unbelievable one. I'm the devil now...to them.

Unbelievable.

 

[Philippa]

It's like we've all done this massive f*ck YOU to each other...only because they are more in numbers, their f*ck YOU has outdone mine. Even in this, they are competitive.

Astounding.:poop:

 

[Loloma]

[quote Prior to my grandmother's diagnosis, I refused any hugs from any of my immediate family members -- a frozen period that lasted at least five years. Not long after my grandmother was in the final stages of her illness, I broke down and hugged my mother. It was like an electric blanket in the hardest winter warmed us both immediately.

Alzei..Alzheimers: as difficult a disease as it is to spell. My heart goes out to you and your sisters. ((((more hugs and a warm blanket in the coldest of times))))[/quote]

Firstly thank you for your kind words. I can relate to what you are saying about your mother. My mother was not nice either, or should I say she was more like the devil.

She died 3 years ago from schizophrenia and dementia. We had to watch her waste away suffering pneumonia. Took her 3 weeks to die. My sisters and I spent this time in shifts at her bed side till she pasted away. It's a hard thing to go through. My mum was 84, my sister is 20 years younger.

I am glad that you got something out of your grandmothers death and saw another side of your mother, which is a good thing.

Take care.

 

[JustBe]

Anxious and excited about my trip tomorrow.

 

[SweetPeaandSunBird]

I hope it goes well, MO. Take good tunage that you and your dog will both enjoy -- are you driving?

I feel very positive tonight. Much of it due to this website (the survivors here) and how it's formatted to let different types of survivors (and supporters) move in and out based on their needs at the moment.

 

[shadowchaser]

drained. long day. Happy that it is done.

 

[goingonhope]

I feel frustrated :banghead: with myself for trying here tonight to put into text and sentences anything whatsoever. I am overwhelmed, feeling worried and a few other difficult feelings. :speechless:

:tup: This day has been very busy and rewarding in its accomplishments and yet somehow earlier it took quite the blow :confused: and had been twisted up such that it now feels like a freakin failure of a day. :poop:

I'm feeling depreciated, frustrated, hurt, unappreciated and now briefly I'm entertaining feelings of hopelessness.

Amidst this all, inwardly I am very :( and feeling extremely hurt, betrayed and angry.

 

[Tanishq]

I am feeling relieved. Healing has started and My body is asking for lots of mental rest. I can't do any study. Today we have midterm unit tests, can't do anything for it. Bit disappointed and with that I am happy finally my physical issues are being healed. I can feel coolness in winds.

 

[Trembling]

Feeling broken, hurt and so exhausted. Though I slept, these dreams just do not let me get the peace I would need right now.

 

[Srain]

((((((((((((((((Hugs to those that hurting)))))))))))))))))

I am up in the middle of the night, just not able to sleep. I'm dropping in before I take Big Girl out for a walk by herself, hopefully without running into anything dramatic! It's been awhile since I have been up and out this early (late?) so I'm looking forward to the quiet peaceful streets without all the noise and car lights flashing, it allows me to walk in the neighborhood streets instead of the sidewalks so that if there are any stray wildlife I see them long before they get to me. A HUGE preference of mine.

A little anxiety about a luncheon I have set up for tomorrow with my mother - obligation - I'll try to look at as a chance to get out of this area for a bit.

 

[Ice_Fire]

Panicky, cold, stressed. Thoughts and heart are racing. Scared.

 

[amethist]

I am full of the joys of the sun today.

We still have no central heating so it is a bit chilly, but that should be fixed this afternoon. Hubby's anxiety is rising because of the boiler, but I am not letting it effect me. :tup: