What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[KP the nut]

I'm feeling so positive and upbeat today.

I have had a really productive morning although I have nothing tangible to show for it. I'll do some housework after lunch and bake some blueberry muffins.

I am feeling like the old me and it is a good feeling.

 

[Tanishq]

Feeling good :)

 

[SweetPeaandSunBird]

I feel gray today (it's rainy outside), but I'm functional.

Traumagirl, I feel for how much anxiety that must have produced (your father arriving late to pick up your kids). (((Hugs and a tastey smoothie for you.)))

 

[amethist]

I feel that life is looking better each day.

Hubby has not looked so well in a long time. His garage is now up so he will be able to build his workshop up.

he looks like the cat that got a years supply of cream in one go, it makes me happy to see him like this.

 

[Addy]

I feel: confused, scared, worried, anxious and completely and totally overwhelmed with life and being diagnosed DID. VERY VERY frightening!

 

[DharmaGirl]

Empty. I have had to jump through medical hoops for 2 months in great pain and now I know the surgeon will say there is nothing he can do for me. I am lost and empty.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I feel so happy. I feel so good. It is so good to have my laptop back. My daughter is coming over tommorow to visit and I am going to her house on Sunday. I have some very good friends here and I am so grateful and appreciative.

 

[safenow]

I feel validated. Last night I felt disrespected and thought perhaps I was being over sensitive, but this morning I found that others felt the same way I did, and reminded me that my feelings count. Such a great thing in my book.

 

[shoulderblades]

Really, really freakin' anxious. Have my first therapy session in less than an hour. I am terrified; every fibre of my being is screaming at me to not go. I want to cancel the appointment and go back to bed and hide.

What if I freeze up? What if I go blank? What if I can't recall anything under pressure? What if I can't properly verbalise what I need to talk about? What if I make no sense? What if the therapist doesn't believe me? Am I even doing the right thing by going to a therapist? Why, after several days of feeling proud of myself for finally getting in contact with a therapist, am I having cold feet all of a sudden? Why is every fibre of my being screaming out at me to not go, to stay home and to hide in the bedroom away from everyone? How can I have been positive going to therapy was a good idea and wake up today convinced it's the worst idea I've ever had?

Why am I experiencing so much anxiety over not being believed? Why am I experiencing so much panic over not being taken seriously? Why am I bracing myself for a confrontation, to be told by the therapist that I'm overreacting and overemotional and just looking for attention? Is that the voice of my abusers trying to overpower me? Or am I just blowing things way out of proportion?

ARGH HELP. :-( :-( :-(

 

[KP the nut]

I feel ruthless :devilish: but in a good way. I have began to de-clutter the house. I hate throwing things away but once I start then I show no mercy.

I feel that having a good clear out is rejuvenating me. I've also decided to give away my box of fiction that is stored in the garage - Crafty Cath beware, it may move from my house to yours ;) Plus things to the charity shop and the rest into the bin. A few things we will try and sell, but which ever way it goes it will be out of the house.

ARGH HELP. :-( :-( :-(

(((Hugs))), breathe, keep telling yourself that you are safe. I find holding a crystal and smelling lemon essential oil helps me.

 

[safenow]

Is that the voice of my abusers trying to overpower me?

Yes.

Take some deep, cleansing breathes. You can do this. Keep breathing. Slow it down. This is a good thing you are doing. We are here for you, shoulderblades. When you get home, come tell us all about it.

 

[littlelostchild]

((Shoulderblades)) I too experience anxiety about not being believed and my other anxiety provoker that the abuse was my fault. It is so hard to come up against them over and over again.
I have had a really hard week feeling so fragile - a number of elephants shot during therapy - necessary pushing by my T, but still unpleasant. I need to face distortions and deconstruct/reconstruct in order to get past them.
So hard