What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ms spock]

Feeling at times a glimmer of hope and at times overwhelmed.

 

[Froggie]

Thank you friends for your kind words. This truly helps.

 

[ms spock]

Best wishes to you Froggie.

Feeling frozen and paralysed in some ways but also pleased that I have done stuff today. I am starting to chip away at this trauma state.

 

[amethist]

Take care of yourself Froggie.

Hopefully knowing they are now not in any pain may make their passing a little bit easier for you to bare.

 

[CourageofSnow]

Thinking of you Froggie at this time.

I am feeling frustrated. My hands have been shaking constantly all day. Spilt my soup all over my keyboard before having a flashback at work. Am grateful that I have a supportive work environment, still is very frustrating!!

 

[ms spock]

Finding it really hard to keep chipping away at the frozenness and paralysis.

Did an extra yoga nidra.

Feeling bit stuck.

 

[beautifulbroken]

Unfortunately I'm feeling a lot of back pain. I had a procedure last week and it just hasn't been very good since. So i'm sitting on a heating pad and hoping it starts to subside soon. But it is effecting my mood and making me very frustrated.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

Depressed. Hypervigilance and logic are waging war in my head. I'm mentally and emotionally exhausted and my head hurts.

 

[ms spock]

Stumped and anxious.

So there is so much that I don't remember that makes up the complex trauma of my PTSD. Yet there were times when my father threatened to kill us, thrashed us and tried to kill us. There were times that my father was sexually assaulting me whilst my mother stood outside my bedroom door. There was being out in a car with my drunken grandfather. There was the emotional abuse, the shaming, terrorising, the threatening, the verbal abuse and so forth.

I don't know what brought on the trauma state of paralysis and frozenness in my life. Is this a cumulative thing? It is a feeling partly of dissociation, partly of feeling like I can never escape and can never make a difference. My psychiatrist said I probably felt like I could never escape. It is a feeling of frozenness. And it has been a problem for me most of my life.

 

[Froggie]

@ Ms Spock, I'm sooo sorry that you are going through such a rough period, sending you positive vibes and will burn a candle to send soothing Light out your way. :hug:

 

[who am i kim]

I have the shakes today and feel very overwhelmed. :( There is far to much going on at the moment and I just cannot handle the load, why can't I? I just fall apart. The stress is also to big. On days like this I feel abnormal :alien: as the others around me do not crumble and can go at a fast pace. But I cannot. In my P doc sessions I cry a lot and get very upset, and this is also having a emotional toll on me too. :cry:

 

[ms spock]

Exhausted and worn out.