cherryblossom
VIP Member
today feeling
very anxious
sick from anxiety
hate for myself
pathetic
very anxious
sick from anxiety
hate for myself
pathetic
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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?
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Grama-Herc
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Today I am feeling a sense of loss. I just seem to sit and stare into space. My mind is having its usual racing thoughts that really make no sense. My fun is gone--my happy is gone---my smile is gone--I am gone
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goingonhope
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Today I feel grateful, happy to be alive and at peace with myself.
This wk. I've done 3 (6hr. nearly-straight shifts) of paperwork and hope to be mostly enjoying and relaxing for the rest of this day, even though I do have much more paperwork about.
I feel motivated to take on greater life and pers. challenges that I simply could not conceive of before.
This wk. I've done 3 (6hr. nearly-straight shifts) of paperwork and hope to be mostly enjoying and relaxing for the rest of this day, even though I do have much more paperwork about.
I feel motivated to take on greater life and pers. challenges that I simply could not conceive of before.
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dlross
Today I am feeling the after effects of getting flipped into a place of deep shame by a conversation I had a couple of days ago. Its hard to name the feelings. Maybe just more shame. Eye contact is a non-starter. Wishing to be invisible. Feeling about 6 years old. But looking like a grown up. Perplexed and frightened. Keeping all that at bay as much as possible by staying in my head.
LostInTheFog
Bronze Member
Today...
I feel like I have been on a roller coaster of emotions today.
Earlier this AM I felt blessed and content.
Then I felt alone [even tho not] and very misunderstood, which made me sad.
I have also been struggling with an event that happened over the last week - one of the teens (19) from our church was killed in a car accident last Sunday night. I so wanted to go to the funeral, and prayer service, and am so angry I let things that are MY problem interfere with something so important. Guilt guilt guilt - everything seems to revolve around it!
This kid was so sweet, he was the ONLY one of the youth that ever came right up and shook my hand and introduced himself when we first started there. He had horses too, which I do too. I keep thinking that has some kind of meaning. His name was Cameron.
My stupid reasons are 1) we have not been in a while, and have actually been trying a new church, and I didn't want to just 'pop up'. 2) There was a viewing, the funeral, and a special prayer service last night, and I felt like any of the above would..... maybe send me over the edge, at least really derail me. I just couldn't take it, I knew I couldn't. I didn't even know him well at all - but I am one of those people called an empath - and I soak up all the emotion in a room, theatre, even tragedies [real] on tv.
I so wanted to go comfort my church family, and his family, and get comfort from them. I could not. :doh: I think one reason it hit so close to home is because one of my very bad times in life [I don't know if it is technically a 'trauma', but it is to me! The absolute worse one that I feel I will never be 'over'.]
I was fighting my ex for 10 years over my son, living as if I were hidng from the CIA, and the finally the big one came when he got me when I was down on my luck. I lost/gave up :wall: in the end. And then left the state. He may as well have been 2 and yanked from my arms, the way I felt.
He was 14 and now 20. He's in Ireland right now ministering, and the night he flew over, I stayed up til dawn tracking his flight.
I'm glad to see this thread to share this with you all. I have not been here in a couple weeks, and I need to be. But I feel like my situation is so discombobulated I don't know what to say. Thank you.
I feel like I have been on a roller coaster of emotions today.
Earlier this AM I felt blessed and content.
Then I felt alone [even tho not] and very misunderstood, which made me sad.
I have also been struggling with an event that happened over the last week - one of the teens (19) from our church was killed in a car accident last Sunday night. I so wanted to go to the funeral, and prayer service, and am so angry I let things that are MY problem interfere with something so important. Guilt guilt guilt - everything seems to revolve around it!
This kid was so sweet, he was the ONLY one of the youth that ever came right up and shook my hand and introduced himself when we first started there. He had horses too, which I do too. I keep thinking that has some kind of meaning. His name was Cameron.
My stupid reasons are 1) we have not been in a while, and have actually been trying a new church, and I didn't want to just 'pop up'. 2) There was a viewing, the funeral, and a special prayer service last night, and I felt like any of the above would..... maybe send me over the edge, at least really derail me. I just couldn't take it, I knew I couldn't. I didn't even know him well at all - but I am one of those people called an empath - and I soak up all the emotion in a room, theatre, even tragedies [real] on tv.
I so wanted to go comfort my church family, and his family, and get comfort from them. I could not. :doh: I think one reason it hit so close to home is because one of my very bad times in life [I don't know if it is technically a 'trauma', but it is to me! The absolute worse one that I feel I will never be 'over'.]
I was fighting my ex for 10 years over my son, living as if I were hidng from the CIA, and the finally the big one came when he got me when I was down on my luck. I lost/gave up :wall: in the end. And then left the state. He may as well have been 2 and yanked from my arms, the way I felt.
He was 14 and now 20. He's in Ireland right now ministering, and the night he flew over, I stayed up til dawn tracking his flight.
I'm glad to see this thread to share this with you all. I have not been here in a couple weeks, and I need to be. But I feel like my situation is so discombobulated I don't know what to say. Thank you.
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Nicolette
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Hope venting made you feel better LostInTheFog. Feel free to share as I know it can help you feel better.
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