What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Mina]

Today I feel agitation. I slept poorly and had bad dreams...that sort of 'disturbed' feeling I have upon awakening from that has lingered all day, although I am trying to get rid of it (deep breaths, calming music, etc - only so much I can do while at work). I also feel guilty for behaving poorly at times and for not being the way I used to.

 

[Kunoichi]

Mina,

*hugs*

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Scared, panicked, ashamed of my feelings...feeling like i'm a bad child...trying to fight the urge to punish myself by not caring..i have been "punished" by my abuser enough ..i don't need to add to it

 

[Tinyflame]

Some peace, some acceptance,tentative- a "little wobbly", grateful, a little sad, happy, too. Contemplative. More aware.

 

[missy8888]

Dylan

Dylan, I am really happy for you.. It made me smile reading what you wrote, and gives me hope that my sufferer can do it too.. BIG HUG!!!!!!!:Hug_emoticon:

 

[Dylan]

Missy,

Thanks very much for your response!
Sometimes, in the thick of it, I forget what I'm even working toward and then....a breakthrough.

Thanks again,
Dylan

 

[Mercy]

very grateful for recent posts in my diary
very grateful that we can support each other here

 

[cragger65]

Mercy, I'm glad you're feeling supported, and I couldn't agree with you more.

Myself, today anyway, I'm feeling a little shaky, kind of off. Lot of thoughts and memories chasing themselves around in my head. It's like bad music in the background, just loud enough that you can't ignore it and it takes the peace out of the moment, even while doing things. Tomorrow will be better, I'm sure. Just have to get a few good nights' sleeps in a row.

 

[sallysellsseashells]

I feel better than I have recently. When I get anxious, I pull my head into this 'space' where I just think about lovely things... even to the point of being able to genuinely smile (when I'm on my own even). I'm amazed I can do this. I never could do this before. I don't know where it came form: except the dispair was too great to allow it to hurt me anymore. I really got one up on the dispair today (and maybe for some time yet). :)

I will share some of these lovely things with you:

*butterlies
*rainbows
*mountains
*space
*love itself
*heaven
*churches
*God (the thought is lovely)
*incence
*dappled leaves (lookin up at them)
*the sun shinning on me warming me up
*cats doing stupid things (funny, ungraceful things)
*puppy dogs eyes when they are naughty and know it (I swear they evolved to be cute because they're so mischievous, they would be eaten alive by their own parents if they weren't so darn cute)
*a card I was given by a Pastor for rescuing his dog (when I came by the card by accident, I felt sudden relief - I can do good things, but now I think back on how I felt when I found it, and I think back on my experience with the dog and feel contented)
*carrots - for some reason I feel happy when I think about eating a juicy carrot, even though I don't have any
*oranges - again, same as above. I don't actually like Orange, I just like the taste of orange things... maybe because I hate the color Orange so much and my instincts are kicking in...
*reuniting with some of my friends who are either overseas or in different states at the moment
*Jane Austen novel commical moments
*The difference I'm making for buying Fair Trade chocolate, coffee, etc
*People who accept me for who I am (or the concept of such people)
*Sudoku puzzles, realising I can do something like this makes me happy. :)

 

[cragger65]

Sally, thanks for that. The one that really got me was "dappled leaves (lookin up at them)". I know that feeling so well.

I am feeling tired, a little worn, but grateful I am here, and hopeful that all will be well, and all will be well, and all manner of things will be well... for myself and the people I care about.

 

[Tinyflame]

Feel for the first time in my life, it's ok to be vulnerable, to be voiceless, to be helpless, to be dependent, to be powerless. It's even ok to be weak. :)

 

[Tinyflame]

Forgot, above: it feels wonderful.

 

[goingonhope]

Feelings as today progressed along: awoke happy, ......then feelings of enthusiasm, competency, accomplishment, irked, annoyance, worry, frustration, moderate anger/hurt, competency, sadness, hurt, disappointment, uplift, smiles, fleeting thrill, fleeting joy, disheartened, empathy, sadness, sorrow, grief, worry, overwhelmed, frustration, exhaustion, guilt, total exhaustion! SAD :doh:

Never again!

It's time that old traditions get abandoned and replaced with a new, creative, most importantly our own immediate family tradition and not set, outlined and passed along to us. I'm tired of playing the role of a passive, people pleaser to another's extended family, when we have our very own family with precious children who may live one childhood! One....., before this insane world takes hold.

Feeling some generalized disgust.