What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Suzetig]

Well, the calm thing didn't last long. I had a complete meltdown leaving work tonight, tears and everything. I've no idea what triggered it off but my goodness I'm a bit of a mess.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I'm in a bad mood. I'm angry. I'm really angry that I have to "fix" my thoughts because other people traumatized me and "broke" my brain. And now they get to go on about life like nothing ever happened. And for me everyday has to be deliberate choices to be mindful and use tools. And if not then it's me who "thought too much" or didn't use my tools. As if all of this and my reactions to it are my fault or something. See? I'm in a bad mood.

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling very anxious and very stressed. I am feeling panicky.

I am struggling really hard. Parts of the day are better. But I am struggling really hard.

 

[StarChild]

I still feel very tired. I slept 9 hours in a row! Yay! It's almost 6 weeks since I was able to get that much sleep. Ate a bit, and I think I'll go for another "dive" in my bed.

 

[Lionheart]

I am doing much better than I was earlier in the week; I feel healthier and happier than before. I should have a new computer by this time next week and am looking forward to being able to post more often. I'll be broke, but I'll be online.:laugh:

I honestly hope all are doing well and that you each have a safe and happy weekend.

Peace,
Lion

 

[desiderata310]

Not much done today. Difficulty concentration. Doesn't help that I had the endless meeting this morning followed by a flood of people complaining.
Trying to keep the anxiety down. Just not sure what I am anxious about

 

[Philippa]

Feeling a bit down. Up and down actually. I've been so exhausted all day. Massaged two clients and had to sleep about 4-5 hours after, even past knock off time, I was that tired?

The mothers day thing has been aggravating and getting in my face. I've been craving comfort. Had a roast dinner at the pub tonight and it was about the only comfort I've managed to find that gives me that sense of family again.

Mum always made the best roast beef with yorkshire pudding. Theirs wasn't even close to hers, though the gravy was superb and the roast potatoes were delicious. The weather isn't helping my mood I guess. I just feel the need for cuddles so much at the moment, and comfort. I need comfort badly.

I need my mother to stroke my hair and give me comfort. I projected that onto someone else here the other day, but it's me who needs that comfort right now.

 

[Philippa]

Sadness, grief...deep grief. Need someone to cuddle. Needy. Insecure, unsure of what to do. Lonely. Scared.

 

[therisa]

Oh @Philippa , I would give you, a hug, if you let me. I was there, myself, yesterday, after sharing my letter, with the head therapist, at the art studio, which I have my art therapy at.

Scared, excited and anxious, as I have posted my letter to my younger self. Wondering, have I done the right thing, in making it, so public, like this.

 

[Philippa]

I'm sure your privacy will be respected therisa. If they are professionals they will recognize your gesture and be witnesses to your healing. It's brave of you to show them.

I just feel so maudlin at the moment. Mixed up and feeling like I am screwing myself up even more...but growing at the same time?

 

[desiderata310]

Horrible night last night. S was chasing me and had a copy of the restraining order in his hand. He as furious and coming after me. I'm exhausted from that and the medicine that I took to shut myself down last night and don't want to do anything but lie in bed today and I can't. I have to be at work at 5:30 am in the morning and my middle child is getting ready for prom today and there are tons of other things I SHOULD be doing today. The flashback I had yesterday seemed too real. I'm scared to tell my therapist because I'm worried he will want to put me in the hospital and this is about the worst time possible: one kid with me, who's going to graduate in a couple of weeks, busy schedule at work and I need to be there.

 

[Britt.f7]

I'm not sure what I am feeling. Back to that. I guess I'm okay. Though that isn't a feeling. Fighting negative feelings. Especially because it is finally a sunny day out there. I need to be present. Focus Britt, focus.