What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling ok, hanging in and trying to make myself focus on the positive and lift my spirits again. It is about managing symptoms because I have extra anxiety today and will journal to find out what the toxic thoughts are behind this and I am feeling confident that I will be able to root them out of my mind.

 

[ButterflyDisco]

i am feel happy...is happy a thing? i am feel almost safe...can safety last?

 

[Anrish]

I feel frustrated and left alone. I had my first appointment at that trauma ambulance and they told me that I didn't have a trauma because there was only mental abuse in my case...and they could treat me for social anxiety but not for trauma. I have all the symptoms, only because I wasn't hit as much or raped or something else..I don't fit in and won't get a treatment?! ...I feel despaired and sick of looking for a therapist.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling sick again today. Probably from all of the stress. But I am going to be applying for jobs online today. I feel pretty good that I am learning so quickly to be able to do this.

 

[holdenmonty]

I feel hopeless today but not quite sure why. But thinking back when I was deployed I felt hopeless the vast majority of the time and this time five years ago I was in afghanistan... I was there for six months and I don't want this feeling to last six months...

 

[ButterflyDisco]

im just sad today...i feel defeated...another doctor...another good girl erika now do tricks...another dr had to touch my stuffs...
im sick of the entire medical profession having to touch my stuffs...

 

[SurvivingWarrior]

Today I am feeling misunderstood. Unsupported. Alone. Nervous, scared. Guilty. Yet mysteriously calm.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling so much better now. I have some fresh hopes and I think it would be so great if they pan out. Trying so hard not to get my hopes up.

 

[Anrish]

Insecure. According to PTSD definition, I don't have PTSD. Because my "traumatic" event was not life threatening which includes that I do not suffer from PTSD but from a adaptive disorder. The symptoms are the same in many ways, but there is no "trauma"-treatment for me because I didn't experience a "trauma" from a medical point of view. Is there any help at all?! ...am I still...welcome here? ...what am I? ...and how is the one to say that mental damage is less traumatizing than physical damage? ...I feel very frightened and lost. ...and only because I can't remember some threats anymore because I lack a lot of memories from these times...

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I feel brain fried. After sending out ninety resumes one finally called me back and told me to go the store and apply. I feel so stupid. It took me two hour to fill out the application with their computer. I had to ask for help so many times and it is only good for sixty days. Where will we be in two months. I feel so exhausted, that I am going to take it easy the rest of the day. I just plain feel overwhelmed.

 

[Anrish]

Confused...I read some more articles and I don't know what I have anymore...the adaptive part was a long time ago...so maybe it's PTSD? That therapist from the ambulance...her words are driving me crazy. I was so happy to belong somewhere...but she says I don't belong.... :cry: and today, of all days...my best friend isn't at home and I can't call her...:banghead:

 

[Britt.f7]

@Anrish I don't see why you can't still hang here. I enjoy hearing from you. Not when you are suffering of course. You are not alone.