I have resources. I have a house to myself. I have the opportunity to do creative work and be paid for it. I have connections to communities. I have practices that can anchor and keep me steady. I have a 12 step program which gives some structure to this restoration project! I have unseen support, wise, courageous, loving ancestors, Trees, bodies of water, keepers of crossroads, totem animals. I have access to cleanish water and herbs to help mend me. I have people who care about me, near and far, some I haven't seen in a while, some I've never met, doubt I will ever meet, yet I know them on some level more intimately than I ever will those that are closer to me. I have sunlight, blue sky, and grace walking by my side