I woke up with my Mom at my house after her sleeping over and I listened and listened and counseled her steady throughout this day. Then my daughter and I went to her place and for nearly 3 hrs. I was her computer geek and all while subjected to a continuous flow and extreme doses of toxic negativity. I remained in control regarding this type of experience of her, (as always) and I responded firm and lovingly and while managing everything unbelievably well.
She needs me again and again this week. I don't yet know what I will do. I am more then glad to fix her computer, but sadly she is in most horrible mental, spiritual and physical health. At least a part of her is. I hadn't see this coming and then boom. I lost her before my eyes, just like that, as she embraced everything fear, worry, dread, hate, victimization, catastrophising, insecurity and paranoia.
I miss you Mom. I hate having lost you and then trying so damn hard to support you again, always losing you over and over again. :(