What Do You Do When It Is All Too Much?

[anthony]

Heather, not everything is rough, direct or blunt from me, and I can see quite well you are about to snap.

Unfortunately, these are also one of the times I cannot prevent that... your at a point where you're feeling overwhelmed.

The best thing you can have right now, is to just be heard, hence why my last response was not an advice one, but an encouragement one.

 

[WonderingWhy]

Heather,

I want to say that you did wonderful. You did it! Take one day at a time. In between you MUST take care of yourself! Gather back your strength. Try not to ponder on the difficulty of what you accomplished but the accomplishment itself. The successes! :hug:

 

[Heather]

I can see quite well you are about to snap.

You are right, sorry for being snippy Anthony. I just spent 8 days inpatient. Things were getting completely and totally unmanageable. It went from not only having auditory hallucinations but visual hallucinations too. It really freaked me out. My therapist decided it was time to goto the hospital. I told him I would go but it's not like I had much choice. It was either go or be committed.:eek::p

But I am happy to report that even while I was in the hospital Nicole came to visit me and I played with her. The first time we played "hide and go seek" and I made her into a human wheel barrel. That was a lot of fun. The 2nd visit I helped her play her Nintendo DS and got her to her 2nd level that she's been trying to get to. So, I'm proud of myself for that.

They added some meds. to stop the hallucinations, help with the increased depression/anxiety. I do feel better.

 

[cherryblossom]

Glad you are feeling better Heather. I'm assuming you are now out of hospital? In which case you need to take very good care of yourself. Time management, so that you relax and treat yourself well, while you are not caring for daughter, will give you maximum enjoyment when she is home from school and in your care. You did make some great moves, playing with the kids, and enjoying yourselves. Hopefully this can continue, if you give yourself enough time, and breathing space in between. Get a healthy sleep and exercise routine going, and I see no reason why you can't move from strength to strength.