I read you loud and clear Manic, I like the same things about myself too, and it is hard to find them. I have worked so hard to be able to do this... it does get better. this does work-
it CAN WORK. (statement of fact so no exclamationmark) I will read you again after I have read this through, because you have said so succinctly and perfactly how I am feeling on this also.
Me, I like when some freedom of choice, self-esteem and unpredictability returns to me and in my life.........it makes being me a whole lot easier.
Hope -I had forgotten what this could feel like
I like that I am a good friend, I hope I am anyway. I was told I was so I am going with this.
I like the fact that I used to be spontaneous, and maybe that will come back again -I hope on this also.
I like the fact that I have a sense of humour.
I like my eyes, I think I have nice eyes ...I have trouble seeing so much, but I hope that someone one day will see something special in me.
I like that I try and I think I can maybe trust myself and others again and better.
I like that I am honest and have integrity, I think today that some parts of who i am are underated in this society. But it doesnt stop them from being good.
I like the people that know and love me for who I am and not what I have had happen to me. I just kind of wish I knew the more-better and that maybe they might want to know me better now, because I do think for a while now some parts of me have been put away and closed off, and i would like to share myself with someone else, just as friends, because I do think that friendship is one of the most important things we can give and share, it should to my mind be loved and cherished just like any other living thing. Friendship needs attention to be grow.
I like that I have days when I am firing on all four cylinders (as my care coordinator likes to call it).
And I like that I am maybe having more days like this than I have had in years, and I believe that I can get better on this too.
I believe and like that love is not alien to this planet, I hope that I will grow in it and I hope that ...well enough now. I just hope that we all find what we are looking for and that is peace and the strenght to know that we can maybe all manage this pTSD thing thatwe have. :Hug_emoticon:
I think there is hope for me yet maybe. and I like this about myself.