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What emotion do you dislike most in yourself?

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There is an emotion that goes along with feeling shaky to the point of physically shaking. I don't know what it is, but it is scary and overwhelming and destabilizing. Maybe some kind of grief. I'm not sure. That is the one I am most uncomfortable feeling and dislike going through. The other side of it is nice.
The feelings I dislike in myself are self-hate and self-absorbedness.
 
Sadly a major symptom I experience is emotional numbing. I still experience hopelessness and strong belief the World is not a fair place. The man that caused my PTSD merely lost his job and got whisked out of the country the next day to avoid the legal consequences. I got the life sentence though - Anxiety, the exaggerated startle response, concentration and short term memory are the consequences. But these negative feelings, I think are not emotions. My sister died last year. We were so very close. Her death was a "dull thud" but intellectually, I grieved and still do. When "bad things happen", I experience it as what I call a "dull thud". I dislike "dull thud's" but am powerless to change it. I think if a doctor told me I had a terminal illness, it would be another "Dull Thud", like I am the observer and not the person affected.

I am contributing and not whining. Emotional numbing has been a subject of countless hours with psychologists and psychiatrist and they can only empathise. So the best way to cope is to accept the world is not a fair place and it is what it is; we can then only seek to create a life journey as free as possible from the hazards.
 
Fear and anxiety are my go to, but i actually am battling them less and dislike them less which is a miracle in itself! My depression has significantly lifted since I started being ok with feelng my feelings so that's awesome. I actually would love some anger. Anger is often tied to motivation and action. I want to feel some energy moving! I want some fight back!
 
I don't know if it's an emotion, but being 'fragmented' and dissociated or dipping out like I usually do is that bad, dissociation is terrible with a terrible effect of derailing, shrinking your life, helplessness, depression, anger, frustration, hurt, sadness, loneliness, emptiness, pain, hopelessless, inadequacy, lack, those are all feelings that are so bad to deal with.
 
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