I just picked up the phone and called my sister. No one answered so I did leave a message if she was up to it, to call me.
I had this sudden urge to do it even though my hands were shaking at the thought of even calling her number.
My sister and I haven't talked to one another since 2009. She didn't even call me to tell me when our mother died, so lots of water over and under the dam so to speak.
I don't know if she'll call me back or not but at least I took a step in facing my fear of her. I do believe I was supposed to do as her name is still on my Will.
Maybe she would like to tell me the latest about her kids, she could be a grandmother by now or she might just decide not to have any contact with me.