What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

[The Albatross]

I wish that hawk would quit pecking off my dule/bevy of dove. My bunch of 18-20 regular visiting group at the feeder have dwindled down to 12. He's a wily one very good at camouflage. Poor birdies have been deceived a bit by the last couple of week temps. I have about 4 more species that usually don't arrive til spring.

 

[Ronin]

The today's kid. For a change.

And how I needa worry about gumbo & other stews. Not hurt kids. And not restaurants & bar fights. And not f*ckit.

Food.

 

[Tinyflame]

I got a free giant pointsettia, which I had hoped I could find one (though too late), as the one I had 3 or 4 years dies from lack of sun/ storm in the fall. I would have taken a small one, but it's the most beautiful I've ever seen. :inlove: If it managed to get some real light through the windows it may make it. I was able to keep it, at least for now, though we are throwing much out. Or a relative is.

I realized I hope a relative reconciles with someone else, as much for my sake as for their's. :(

 

[Tinyflame]

I hope thursday goes ok. :unsure:

 

[Ellabella44]

I'm trying to adjust to the new things in my life. Each thing will be a lot of work and I'm starting it all at beginner level. I have a few more days till my trauma anniversary is over. 8 more days and hopefully ill pull out of the worst of the depression.

 

[MrMoonlight]

I'm proud about the way I've been handling myself with the exception of catching myself being too agreeable and supporting in conversations and company. It may be difficult having to enter those houses today with reminders of loss and recent death.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I felt like I was doing rather well overall, and then the a-fib incident from last weekend and the feelings/symptoms that followed that, then damn near getting t-boned and rear ended all at the same time while going to the grocery store yesterday has harshly reminded my nervous system that staying home is in my best interest. F'n safety hazards. (that's how I now phrase what used to be road rage rambles)

I often internally wrestle with finding a purpose(s) in which I can be of help to others, but how in the hell can I commit to things when so many different things can cause such an upset in basic functioning day in and day out. How in the hell did I ever do all I've done?

Apparently my current purpose is to just do me in whatever healing way is needed in the moment, even if it's just to keep breathing. Maybe another day, or another week, will allow for more comfort in venturing back out into the madness to navigate my healing spaces. Incredibly grateful to have that be an option.

 

[Deanna]

My meds were upped so getting use to new meds. More of the pill does very well. I stay disassociated at times but that's going to happen. If I sleep.. I don't want to move all day. Getting up and taking shower, even in the weekends= keep moving. Not bad.

 

[DharmaGirl]

The neighbors on my left are crazy. I asked them to please not walk through my garden LAST YEAR, and they are still trying to pick fights with me every time I work on it. Nutso.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

A dear friend prompted this train of thought today...

I wish folks would gather in as great of numbers and as loudly and proudly for clean air and water as they do for gun rights and such. Nothing that we hold dear is really going to matter if we can't breathe the air or drink the water. How about some clean air and clean water sanctuary cities, yo.

 

[Ellabella44]

Acountability and why its needed for so many things in order to keep moving forward

 

[DharmaGirl]

How many seeds I planted, and where I'm going to transplant them.