What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

[Charbella]

I’ve been circling about a post I read here last week and how unsafe it’s making me in posting.

A comment a friend made that has me wondering if we’re friends or she just feels sorry for me.

Therapy today.

 

[Teasel]

Noticed that increasingly I miss out the ... my grammar is not good ... the I or me out of a sentence. Pronouns? Weird

 

[Lionheart]

I have an ex-friend that has untreated PTSD and she takes the victim role all of the time. I am just thinking that I am happy that I have taken the bull by the horns and addressed my trauma issues.

 

[Tinyflame]

I am thinking people here go south to escape the cold; pretty soon people will be thinking of heading north to escape the heat.

I was thinking someone did a cute thing at church for me 3 weeks ago I've never had happen in my whole life.

 

[Friday]

Why the hell 80’ away from my house has better wifi reception than 10’ away?!?

I kinda/sorta suspect it’s because the condos about 100’ away have multiple units with signal boosters in them… but I’m so much of a Luddite I’m not even sure that’s a thing. Other peoples signal boosters boosting my own signal. You’d think people would narrow the field to their own signal. Unless THAT isn’t a thing, and they just boost broadly.

IDFK.

It’s vexing.

 

[No More]

Just thinking about my bestie.

About how grateful I am to have her in my life. About how wonderfully kind, incredibly talented, beautiful, funny & just all round rockstar she is. I am just humbled I have someone like that who will always have my back, be in my corner, come running anytime day or night.

I hope she knows I’m her biggest cheerleader, that I’d move mountains for her & that she keeps me alive every.single.day because it would destroy her if I off’d myself.

I dunno man, partners & family & friends are all amazing. But having a bestie/twin/partner in crime just hits different.

 

[Tinyflame]

You sound like a wonderful friend too @No More !

Was remembering, @Hulda mentioned Jonah and the whale.. when I was a young teen I was at an aquarium with killer whales, it was oval and had viewing windows below ground. I couldn't see anything, had my face and hands pushed to the glass looking right and left. All of a sudden it was like a house was coming down on top of me on my left, it was circling the periphery. I can't remember doing it but I jumped back about 4 feet and over a bench. But in the moment, I saw not anything frightening, but rather The Most Beautiful Big Brown eye, the size of a dinner plate (seriously), a bit lighter brown than mine and LONG EYE LASHES!! And it looked sad (probably sick, as with animals that is often it and I heard it died a year or two later; mind you it would be like us stuck in a bathtub). But it was the most magnificent sight and SO BEAUTIFUL. About 6 months ago I looked up images online (probably procrastinating lol), thinking surely professional photographers or scuba divers must have captured such a sight repeatedly. But I found only one image that wasn't even remotely as wonderful and close as what I saw. I feel really honored and Blessed I got to see that. Not frightening but soothing and beautiful! I always thought they were magnificent but, wow. And no one ever mentions their eyelashes!!

 

[Adobe]

I am thinking how loved I am by my schnauzer. He is cuddled up next to me and the warmth of his little body is comforting and the sound of his snoring lets me know he also is content.

 

[trytryagain]

I'm thinking about why my biggest fear is being alone and what that fear is truly about.

 

[Adobe]

I’ve been circling about a post I read here last week and how unsafe it’s making me in posting

A comment a friend made that has me wondering if we’re friends or she just feels sorry for me

Of my aunt who's anniversary of her death is next week. Can't do what I hoped for her. Or my sister in a month. I guess that's the thing about disappointment,, the only one it affects is you. Guess it doesn't matter then. Except to me.

Oh well, who cares. Same old.

Therapy today.

I'm thinking about why my biggest fear is being alone and what that fear is truly about.

I’ve been circling about a post I read here last week and how unsafe it’s making me in posting.

A comment a friend made that has me wondering if we’re friends or she just feels sorry for me.

Therapy today.

Can you ask for clarification on the post and face the fear of being unsafe. You should feel safe at all times on this forum.I think there must be an explanation. It does not have to be contentious. It is how we learn about others and what it is that is making us fear.. something is blocking you from opening up . It could be old stuff from your past or just a reaction. Next is what is it about that post which made you feel unsafe. Best to you as you work through it. Stay with this - may be revelatory. May be a valid feeling.

It is hard as when we share about these issues .Most people are like a deer in headlights. They have no frame of reference. They will make comments with no basis on what you shared. Some things that are said to us we are given no alternative but to put it on a shelf. It may have been a one off boo-boo. After you have seen her a couple of times it will be confirmed . Then you will have to see if the friendship is worth any more time. Please don’t run those things over and over in your mind. That wears me out! I have times when I am more highly sensitive.Here is hoping for truth so you don’t have to feel unsafe or think about her long . If you don’t address it. It will remain and keep you in a wondering place with no answers. Things like that make me fly away or fight. This will be better when you get answers. You might be surprised .Therei is an article under articles at top of home page, “Reframing Negative Thoughts”. It is helpful

 

[intothelight]

Need to dig deep and make the changes to get ready for the fight. It is really the fight for my life and the things I do, the mindset I have and the support I feel will make a difference in not just how long I live, but how well I live. Here it goes.

 

[Tinyflame]

Well, looked up length of killer whale eyelashes and they said they don't have any??? I know we can fill in memories. Yet, I know I thought, wow, it even has LASHES. So Idk what I saw? Well I DO know what I saw. I don't know what I saw, but I sure know what it looked like!