I used to think that there was something defective about me, even after my diagnosis. I used to explain myself to all the people I met. I do not do this anymore. I am me ptsd and all. I feel better not explaining myself to people, it did not help them to get me or understand me. I fit in to the people in this forum. It has been wonderful to be just me, and not have to go through the crapola. I do not have much contact with so called normal people.
I figure it is none of their buisiness anyways. I have really changed my thinking process in how I relate to people. I tried really hard for so many years to be understood. I wish I had this forum so many years ago, I wouldn't have wasted so much energy on people who simply were not worth it. I guess my self esteem grew and I became healthier with better boundries. It is refreshing here on this forum. It has definately speeded up my healing process. It has been wonderful to read what everyone has said. I feel better now.