What Is This?

[Justmehere]

Since last Friday, I have been crying a lot. I don’t understand why. Cute video of puppies? I’m in ears. Someone says something sad? I’m in tears. I was initially wondering if I was hormonal or something, but that would only last a day. It’s been 5 days now. I’m used to having anxiety, anger, or being so depressed and overwhelmed I want to die. But I am not used to getting chocked up over everything. Anyone else struggle with anything like this? Is this PTSD? My therapist said she thought I had a lot fo tears inside that would need to come out over time. Maybe this is what she was talking about. I will for sure be asking her about it when I see her in a few days, but I thought I would ask you all as well.

 

[Leigh925]

I never cried very much at all then about 6 months into therapy I had a week where all I did was cry.....stupid 30 second commercials on tv sometimes would get me going. My therapist said the same thing as yours. I had a lot of tears that needed to come out. Now I am fine for a couple of weeks then have a day or so where I am kind of like that. I think that I went so many years numbed out that I just get overwhelmed with actually feeling things and that it will smooth out or bother me less the healthier I get! Not much help but I understand!

 

[WillyKat]

I'm not entirely sure what's going on, but you might consider seeing this as a positive development.

I went on a vision quest last fall and spent three days alone in the wilderness, much of that time crying. I was finally having feelings! A lot of it was grief, some of it was joy.

Being able to feel is a positive step. It means your emotional being is working. Perhaps you're overly sensitive right now, but I think that will even out over time.

 

[Chava]

Sorry you're feeling so, so low. I did go through something a couple weeks ago (really wanting to die, for no clear reason but everything was shouting "meaningless!!" at me). Partly my stuff was hormonal, I thought, but didn't totally resolve...like hormones simply set this in motion. I do know I have a lot of sadness that I have not felt safe dealing with...and also that some sort of layers or defense mechanisms have been peeling away. So it's terrible, but in my case, I'm hoping it's not the true hopelessness I feel but more reaching the sadness on a level where I can tolerate it without really destroying myself. I am recognizing some of my long-held defenses as meaningless, recognizing my isolation, feeling hopeless sometimes about moving beyond. It's not really good, but it's really a different level of awareness. I don't know if any of that sounds similar to what you are going through. But I relate to lots of sadness. I'm always scared by it because I've handled it so poorly in the past, so I think the challenge is hanging in there this time and moving beyond it, however slowly. Take care of yourself and allow yourself some extra peace, comfort, and safety.

 

[Upside Down Eagle]

Yeah. I have been having crying fits over the past few weeks. And choke up over everything, too.
If you cry spontaneously, it probably means you're letting stuff go. You have space now, to let go of it.

You'll probably feel whether the crying is positive or not. For adults, I think when we finally cry, it's pretty much positive.
Just try to feel it, observe it. It will even out, as WillyKat says. It can really free up some space inside you.

 

[Springer80]

Cute video of puppies? I’m in ears.

I think this is because you see cute little puppies and you see how little and cuddly they are. They're uninhibited and need love and give love. It stir's that feeling up in you. I know I've bawled my eyes out over stuff like this. In fact, my best friend has had a baby ten days ago and I still haven't been because I KNOW I'm going to cry my eyes out.

 

[Suzetig]

I started crying literally a year ago today and didn't stop for about 7 months. Honestly, I think I cried every day at some point in the day, everything from being a bit weepy eyed to full blown sobs and tears. I was having difficulties at work but my distress levels went way above what could be considered normal for the situation. That's what alerted me to something deeper going on, I took myself off to therapy where I cried for a full hour every week for about 3 months while my therapist did everything in her power to figure out what was going on for me. I know what it is to have a lot of tears that need to come out.

It's horrible when you do start to shed those tears, it can leave you feeling out of control and wondering if you'll ever be stable but it does settle. It is your body's way of healing - try to give yourself space to feel and to cry if you need to.

 

[risingsun]

My therapist said she thought I had a lot fo tears inside that would need to come out over time.

Tears are a release, a healing of the heart, a healing of the soul. Sometimes I watch movies, mostly inspiring kind of ones where there is triumph at the end, just so that I will cry. It releases all of the fear, sadness, trauma, and even anger within me. Justmehear, you are beginning to truly heal. Go with the process. Nothing is wrong with you. In fact, all is well with you. Your heart that has been so hurt for so long is healing. Warmest to you, Rising Sun

 

[Springer80]

Sometimes I watch movies, mostly inspiring kind of ones where there is triumph at the end, just so that I will cry.

Meet Joe Black is one of mine. I blub like a jelly and the snot bubbles are huge.

 

[Springer80]

Oh and Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Café, makes me wail like a banshee.

Take it easy on yourself JMH, you've been through a lot in the last few months. If I could give you a hug and have a nice big cry with you I would. :hug::hug::hug:

It will be okay. :sleep:

 

[WillyKat]

I get choked up whenever I see a teenage love story. Very painful memories for me.