I met with a new person to prescribe meds. That alone caused anxiety. Then there was the drive. The she told me my meds could be addictive and I should cut back. She blew off the drive anxiety and dismissed that I don't like leaving the house (you don't have a reason to leave - no, it scares me!). Then she told me I need to figure out what I am going to do with the rest of my life. My thought was "what the heck? My dad died last week. I am going through divorce with a spouse that is stalling because he wants everything. I don't know how I am going to get through today!" what I said was "There is no future." She proceeded to tell me I need face I have many years to live and I need to figure it out. I told her that wasn't comforting but thought, "there doesn't have to be a future." I spent the drive home fighting those suicidal thoughts and having a panic attack. I also contacted my case worker and she is calling and chewing on her. That woman I met with dismissed me, blew off events in my past (that's in the past and doesn't matter a - really?? Abuse from birth doesn't matter?) and must know NOTHING about PTSD. I am furious and will let the new therapist know about it tomorrow when I meet with her. I am told that clinic is good with trauma or I wouldn't ever go back. But, I will raise hell tomorrow. I am I angry. Now I get to deal with the spouse all evening. Yippee.