What Makes You Angry Today?

[spc_ralph]

what pisses me off is talking to my wife. i used to be able to talk to her about the beast, but the last few years, everytime i try, i get a lecture that basically says "suck it up cry baby". apparently the beast is a figment of my imagination or something.

 

[Kaishi]

Do you know when that changed, Ralph? Or like what coulda possibly gotten her to go this mode on you, thinking if you can pin point if that was some event related and maybe go back to resolving that, in time.
In every case, wish she'd treat you better. Hang in there meantime.

 

[Friday]

This is a first. Too f*ckin angry to drive.

 

[Kaishi]

Please be safe, Friday. Sorry for the mess/morons that got you there. Rooting for you.

 

[Friday]

Just one more counselor who doesn't get it. Shouldn't be this mad, or surprised about it. Wrong part of the world where none of this shit is business as usual, or it's like they see tits and think 'somehow, some way, this all comes down to rape'. FFS. Com. Bat. Coooooom-baaaaat. Quaaaaaahmmmmm-bah-yaaaaaat. Head. Drywall. Repeat.

 

[holdenmonty]

It's sad that we basically have to be our own counselors... At least the counselor that I have now told me up front that her goal was to equip me enough that I can basically be my own therapist... I guess to them they just want to help us out enough that we aren't their problem anymore.

 

[holdenmonty]

What makes me angry today.... is my supervisor. So long story short I forgot to pay one month's bill and they started calling me at work but when I answered the phone I could tell it was them because of the 1-800 number and those f*ckers would hang up on me but stay on the line if anybody else answered my phone... But anyway I'm almost caught all the way back up and my supervisor tells me that I have to go to a financial class and have a one on one meeting with the on base financial counselor... A couple weeks ago she said I had to make an appointment with the financial counselor or take a financial class, and now she changed her mind and even though I signed up for a stupid financial class she is telling me that I still have to have a meeting with the financial counselor... I don't need to go to a financial class or talk to a financial counselor... I have a budget and I just made one small mistake which is just about gone now. To me it's total disrespect to force me to do this crap when I have talked to her about the root of the issue and she said she understood and said I didn't even have to attend a financial class a month ago... I don't have any f*cking financial problems get off my f*cking back. I may have my issues but my finances aren't one of those and my supervisor being on my ass about it and changing what I have to do which is stupid to begin with is just pissing me off and making it tough to control the beast.

 

[Sarg]

Holden,

Cut the horseshit. Going to meetings is not having to work. Going to meetings is time to catch up on sleep you went without last night because you were bending elbows at the Bar and grill.

Seriously. Society has gotten so PC about every damn aspect of our lives, there's no end to their "if A, insert B". Go along with it. Don't resent it. The last few years I worked, they sent me to every damn thing you could imagine. I sat there, half awake, and nodded in unison with my fellow employees and got out of doing a whole bunch of paperwork because I got to enter, "driving school for dummies" in my daily diary and anything that went to shit out in the field was all the fault of their classes.

Don't be offended. Sign up for every damn thing they put out there. My hope was they would send me to so many meeting and classes, they'd forget I worked there and like that VA employee that has been on vacation for the last thirty years, wouldn't remember me until I started drawing my retirement.

I'm not making fun of you, Holden, I'm making fun of myself. At first, when they sent me to those things, I was offended. But I came to realize that if I followed what they told me to do, they left me alone and, in their eyes, became a more valuable employee.

So, sit in the back of the room. Paint pupils on your eyelids and be sure to sign the sign-in sheet. You're giving yourself ulcers over other's idiocy.

Sarg

 

[Deleted member 43454]

"Shove your whole feel sorry for you up ur ass grow up,
get a job, or go to school, get off the f*cking pot pipe."

Thanks Mom. ;)

 

[Kaishi]

DrBlack, you're living and getting through days. I guess that's doing first of those jobs juuust right.

Sorry for one liners. I'm just too pissed off at people thinking being alive doesn't require f*cking effort.

 

[Raven]

Friday, you're not going to click with every counselor or therapist you encounter. The good news is that you can usually tell if the dynamic will work or not work in the first session.

I would avoid groups because they tend to turn into pissing matches about who had it worse, or everyone just beats around the bush and makes smalltalk the whole time. I used to be able to deal with the latter, but now I don't want to want to waste my time listening to other scared, f*cked up vets make smalltalk.

 

[Friday]

@DrBlack Moms/Parents are just rough. Even though you know they put most of the buttons there to begin with, so they know exactly where they are, it just feels like knives when they push them. Honest to god, I pretended to sleep through the last time my mom gutted me. Which would be Saturday. Thanks mom. Love you too. Buh-bye now. Bye. Buh-bye. I've gotta see if my self esteem got stuck in the carpet or sank through the floorboards. S'around here some f*cking where.

@Raven Yeah. I had a fit of motivation so lined up a bunch of interview type apts. I'm beginning to realize that was a mistake. (Actually "f*ck Therapy" was more in line with what I was thinking, but that's probably not the healthiest attitude to take). There's one more in a few weeks I might drag my ass out for. Dunno. Think it's time to head back to "church". AKA Spend my money at the gun range rather than in an office where I feel batshit. I swear, feeling Competent at something, is just such damn good medicine. Huzzah. I can put holes in paper. At least it drops my HR down to nothing for a little while.