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What Makes You Angry Today?

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Brothers and sisters, I have to agree with Sarg. I'm on my fourth wife thanks to the beast. Three years ago, when I met my current wife, I finally talked about the shit that consumed me daily and at night. She didnt understand either but she gave me the space and understood that it was necessary to keep me from blowing up over nothing and causing trouble between us. At these times when the beast is trying to wreak havoc on us, she has to understand that you will talk to her about whats going on with you when You are ready. Pressure dont help. You're the only one that can explain it to her Brother. Peace
 
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Today has been such a bs day. Today is my Monday. Work wasn't bad for the most part. Pretty tame actually for a weekday. However, I had a schedule change form thrown at me. We're constantly changing our schedules to meet "business needs". When I put in for the job I have now, I told them what schedule I can have because of school. So, I got put on a locked schedule.

I'm some what motivated to be a team player and change my schedule for next month since I didn't enroll for summer classes. However, once September rolls around that they have to change it to accommodate my needs. However, nearly all the schedules to choose from on the list are opening or closing shifts.

Opening shift is at 4AM. I rarely got up at 4AM in the military let alone for a f*cking office job. With my sleep schedule and lack of sleep, no way in hell a 4AM shift is going to work for me.

Closing shift, 2-11PM. Wouldn't be bad, but that would mean I would have to sneak into the house trying not to wake up the girlfriend and or her sleeping toddler. Then when they leave in the morning get woken up by them and if that happens, there would be no way I'd be able to go back to sleep.

There was some normal shifts in there but few and far between. My boss offered to tell me what my schedule would be tonight but I told him I've had enough bad news today and went home. I can't f*cking win today.
 
Being on the brink...and looking at the meds I have left, and what's coming down the pipes... And knowing it's not going to be enough.

f*ck it. Like dying of thirst in the desert with a full canteen, right? Take what I need now, and I'll guess I'll just have to burn that bridge when I get there next week.

I hate this shit.
 
I'll guess I'll just have to burn that bridge when I get there next week.
We don't need all these bridges, take the ones you need and burn them if you're only crossing once.

In other news... Today actually felt like I was reliving one of those boot camp or sgt major complain speeches. "You're not working as a team, some of you are f*cking up, etc". I worked as a team member of the worlds largest f*cking team, don't not insist I'm being a f*cking individual. Be a f*cking leader and develop your peers, you f*ck face. o_O
 
We don't need all these bridges, take the ones you need and burn them if you're only crossing once.

In other news... Today actually felt like I was reliving one of those boot camp or sgt major complain speeches. "You're not working as a team, some of you are f*cking up, etc". I worked as a team member of the worlds largest f*cking team, don't not insist I'm being a f*cking individual. Be a f*cking leader and develop your peers, you f*ck face. o_O

That reminds of a funny one I did. The CO wanted a Class A turn out for inspection. The sgt major got to do the deed, so he's going down the ranks stopping here and there. He comes up to me and does his thing and says something like your squared away and looking sharp sgt......I look him in the eye and said Thank You Drill Sargent!!! He just stood there for a few seconds, looking at me........And lost it, laugh his ass off!!!!! All the guys that heard it, also went off.....What fun and the best Class A's inspection I ever did.......The sgt major was one hell of a nice guy......But don't ever cross him, if you did you were in shit city.

J R
 
Honestly, it was the bosses boss giving this speech. I threw the vet card on the table. That logic works in training but when you get past that, you need to week with the weak link and or help those who've made mistakes so they're not making them again. I basically called him out on it. Told him that we can't grow as a team if these people whomever are not getting coached. Told him there's no communication between our level of management. And said, hell, he's never even bothered to address me since February, not even a "hello". He didn't even respond lol. Job security?
 
Luckily today is a pretty good day but the thing that drives me crazy at my job is that I'm the only admin guy supporting 48 people and even though there is plenty of stuff that those 48 people can do on their own and have taught them and shown them how to do different things on their own some days I get just about everybody asking me to do something for them when my plate is already full of stuff
 
Well something happened that really pissed me off... So its understandable that on base they do a test of the different alarms... They usually do an announcement that they are going to do the test that you can hear but for some reason today I didn't hear it or had any kind of knowledge that it was going to happen and I'm sitting at my desk and all of a sudden the wavering tone happens... just like the rocket attack alarm when I was at Kandahar and I freaked out and was trying to figure out where I was and trying to remind myself that I'm safe even though my heart is still racing and I feel like something bad is going to happen...
 
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