Since yesterday I read some posts here, where the events causing trauma are so obvious and scary that I started doubting if I really have PTSD or maybe if I have the right to have it... I was luckier than many but maybe also less lucky than others.. I don't know...
I am a strong person. I was able to be in touch with my both parents and get over the guilt about their lives and happiness at least consciously. I was able to recover from bad post-patrum depression (PPD) all by myself self-analyzing and reading. I am also aware that actually this PPD might have triggered my PTSD and many side effects or symptoms became more persistent and obvious. Some are gone with PPD, but some are still here.
Both me and my sister witnessed domestic violence against my mother but we didn't become victims ourselves. Sometimes when I witness or hear about abuse I am becoming so emotional and anxious I could kill and I am scared I would if that was against me, my sister or our kids... I know that is not a normal reaction too, but I was lucky I didn't have to prove this.
Now I wonder if I really need to see a specialist. If so, what kind of specialist? A psychologist? A psychoanalyst? Anyone else? What kind of therapy should I seek? I have no idea how to be and where to go from here and if I need to do that at all... thank you.
I am a strong person. I was able to be in touch with my both parents and get over the guilt about their lives and happiness at least consciously. I was able to recover from bad post-patrum depression (PPD) all by myself self-analyzing and reading. I am also aware that actually this PPD might have triggered my PTSD and many side effects or symptoms became more persistent and obvious. Some are gone with PPD, but some are still here.
Both me and my sister witnessed domestic violence against my mother but we didn't become victims ourselves. Sometimes when I witness or hear about abuse I am becoming so emotional and anxious I could kill and I am scared I would if that was against me, my sister or our kids... I know that is not a normal reaction too, but I was lucky I didn't have to prove this.
Now I wonder if I really need to see a specialist. If so, what kind of specialist? A psychologist? A psychoanalyst? Anyone else? What kind of therapy should I seek? I have no idea how to be and where to go from here and if I need to do that at all... thank you.
