What small thing/s did you do today to chip away at your avoidance?

[ms spock]

I just keep turning up. I just keep doing it. I am trying to do something for the young woman who is a suicide waiting to happen. I mean she is vibrating with it. Six boys constantly taunt her during class. How hard can it be to transfer her to another class?

 

[VioletButterfly]

I have made two calls and set appointments to view housing options. I went to one yesterday and brought up my not having a job right now. I'm waiting to hear back on the owner's decision. I am going to the second appointment today and will address the issue as well. I need to know so that I can plan as I only have a few weeks left on my lease.

Also, working on applying for jobs. Such a push pull that usually devolves into an anxiety-ridden smackdown of sorts and then I eek out one. I think I need to look at this dynamic at some point, but for now, one application at a time is a win. Calling the agencies soon, but wanted to try for a job with benefits first. I'm avoiding it right now! Ugh!

 

[Teasel]

Got my chest xray done

 

[VioletButterfly]

Will be looking for housing and putting in a couple of applications today, working on my resume, and packing. Need to keep myself in motion as it seems to keep me striding on by avoidance. Kind of like that little engine that could from the nursery school story.

 

[VioletButterfly]

I made myself submit an application for an apartment. Seemed to be the time as I have to move next Monday. Oy! My heart is not in this what-so-ever. I also looked for jobs although I'm finding myself splashing around in the pool of "it will never happen." So, next comes confronting my attitude. I'm avoiding that for now. ;)

 

[ms spock]

I bought food for B so that whilst I am away he has plenty of stuff to nuke and munch on.

 

[VioletButterfly]

I looked for jobs this morning. I have the tabs for my treasures open right now on the desktop. A little avoidance right now in moving forward with the work or maybe just a break? My goal is to get going on applications between today and tomorrow. At least I found a few opportunities and I feel a wee bit of hope. God is at work inside of me. That's all I can figure because yesterday was all doom and gloom.

The attitude is something all by itself. It just impacts everything else I try to do. So, I'm back to reading my devotional and listening.... I'm also watching some programming on my local "hope" channel. Darrell Strawberry.... He's got a powerful story. So, I'll be grateful and keep putting one foot in front of the other despite the frustrations.

 

[VioletButterfly]

Avoiding right now. Need to apply for a job I found. Mental war. Good grief, I deplore this! Never/ever/forever lies really stink!

 

[NatBird]

paid bills, put appointments in diary, went to workshop, work meeting communicated with mum, got hoover for tidy up tomorrow

still avoiding school work, writing poems, writing CV, booking train tickets

 

[ms spock]

I made a call.

 

[VioletButterfly]

Fighting the battle this morning. I created an ID at the jobsite, then made some calls for new service at my new apartment. Ugh, so taxing. I'm just not good at this sort of stuff; so much resistance. Still trying to decide on movers due to some questionable reviews v. pick-up time availability. Running out of time here. So, I'm here for a little bit to breathe and connect. Trying to be empathetic with my fearful self. So, one call, one email at a time to set up services/change address/turn off services. One cover letter, one resume, one profile.... The goals for today. Plus, I need to go to the store. Maybe that's my prize. I have a little over 2 hrs before I go, so let me see what I can do.

 

[VioletButterfly]

Phew, not a good day yesterday.... Overwhelmed and a nervous wreck; kind of melted down. :(

Today, I have decided to approach myself with kindness, compassion and gentle urging, with two goals. I want to call the BBB regarding the moving company and I want to review my application and submit it to the job I was looking at yesterday. It disappeared in the afternoon, but has reappeared today with a different job ID. Go figure.

Gently treading water here. I know that I have a lot to do and I'm stalling horribly. A lot of anxiety while I'm trying not to freak out.