First - Let me apologize for my mini-rant that probably should've been in the "Insert Swearish Rant" thread! I was so anxious, upset... that goes along with confrontation that I lost a wee bit of composure. VB hangs head and writes on the chalk board that she'll not think ugly thoughts toward others no express it inappropriately. :(
Second - I just met with the roofer and he indicated that there probably isn't anything he can do about the noise due to the nature of the structure. He said he would try though and would check it all out.
So, well, I've done what I can do. For better or worse, the lease is up in 6 months. The management here has been horrendous and has broken state statutes, so I don't feel badly about standing up to them and forcing their hand. I do feel embarrassed and ashamed, and unwelcome in the complex. Like they think I'm an idiot or something worse. I feel kind of exhausted and empty due to all of the effort made.
It also leaves me feeling kind of sad and discouraged because it's just a continuing pattern/theme - everything in my life seems to be a struggle. So, is this distorted thinking because I'm using "everything" or is it just the fact that life kind of has been going along a difficult path for a decade or two? And, do I just need to focus on the occasions when things do work out and celebrate those no matter how small they are? Not sure.
It compounds avoidance when outcomes are negative because I feel like "Why bother?" This is added to just the whole doing of something that is off-putting. Expectations? Why do I feel worse?
Oh well, I'm freed from an afternoon of waiting and am off to run errands. Sorry to drone on.
