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What Song Are You Listening To Right Now?


Joni Mitchell
Don Juan’s Reckless Daughter

“And [you] put me at the top of your danger list
just for being so much like you are.”

I love you Joni Mitchell!
 
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From my story, "Singing, "We're gonna vent our frustration If we don't we're gonna blow a fifty-amp fuse" Sing it to me, honey." It's an X-Men fanfiction (don't judge, heheheh.) Based on the rebuilding 616 universe (particularly the Magneto Testament, which has been somewhat reworked to match with the correct dates/times/historical data), with Magneto and Professor X. This one is particularly special to me because I utilized some of the testimony from the Restoration Project with permission from the survivors to formulate the basis of Erik's experiences in Auschwitz. There's no heavy-handedness with it, but here's a couple excerpts!
“That’s where you’ll come in,” Daniel grunts in the background, lugging a wheelbarrow of rebar and screws and miscellaneous metal bits over to their work area. “You see, a lot of the children were separated from their families during the war; the ones who managed to reunite-well-they don’t recognize their own parents.”

“Psycho-nonsense,” Erik rolls his eyes. “Give them a hammer.”

“Heartwarming, Lehnsherr. Anyone ever tell you you have the bedside manner of Doctor Frankenstein?”

“I prefer the monster.” His smile is all teeth. “Or is that not what you really think?”

“Can it,” Daniel glowers. Charles senses his mind darkening, pushing out its real feelings with well-practiced, thinly-veiled professionalism. “Atzor, we’re here to work.”

"Putting them in together wouldn't be half-bad, Erik," Charles decides to lob a peace offering over the proverbial fence with a hint of a smile at his companion. "Clinically speaking, of course. I'm afraid I'll have to insist my servant pick up the hammer."

"Serv-" Erik's eyes widen, arms going up in an alarming shrug.

"You really thought I didn't know how to use a hammer?" Charles winks at him as he pilfers a red-handled tool out of the metallic box.
Zeyn perzenlekhkeit iz gornisht,” Erik explains, talking about himself in third person. It’s taken a few minutes for Charles to realize that Erik isn’t speaking German. “Es iz gornisht ir ken ton tsu virkn im. Es iz a guf. Mashineri. Keyn gedanken. Keyn gefiln.

Placing his hand on Charles’s shoulder, everything disappears. Endless blank spaces. no dreams, No hopes, no needs. Disconnected from nerves, separated from sensation. A place where one has died but still walks the earth. A comforting lullaby of electrons floating in the air. Floating on particles. Lounging on atoms the size of a skyscraper.

Keine stimmen. Kein ton. You see, es gibt metall in deinem der geist. Like the pipe he’d crushed, like the metal coin that winds through his fingers, thunderstorms in the distance, where they meandered aimlessly through the atmosphere.

In the deep-deep world where Ruthie sing-songs childishly at him and zeyde teaches him simcha, savlanut, tikvah and mama lets him strike the match-swaying firelight after dark-Baruch atah Adonai Eloheinu melech ha'olam asher kidishanu b'mitzvotav, vitzivanu l'hadlik ner shel Chanukah-

In the deep-deep world where he isn't an instrument of his own culture’s obliteration, where he can still feel sorrow and trace winding kinos over wavering voices-Let us destroy Israel. Look at me G-d; the roads of the temple became desolate when the walls of Yerushalayim were breached. Torah scroll that was consumed by fire, ask about the welfare of those who gasp as they lie in the dust of the earth, who grieve and are bewildered over the burning of your parchment.

And there are no people here. It’s utterly still. There are no people. There’s no one for miles. Charles is completely alone, for the first time that he can remember. Except for the touch of Erik’s hand on his body, the reminder that they are two souls who inhabit bodies.

Erik smiles, bright and clear.

Es gibt überall metall.
 

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