Hi I am 45 and been disabled due to my mental illness for 17yrs now. I am frustrated of the lack of treatment I have received due to my shitty insurance Medicare. All the doctors/therapists I saw during that time never wanted to hear about the trauma. I was told to forget and let it go. I wish it was easy. My abuse lasted 21 yrs. Over these yrs I was misdiagnosed from adhd, bipolar and borderline and did treatments and medications for the illnesses and still wasn't better. My biggest struggle was being around people over the yrs prolly when I was a kid I had developed social anxiety and it's painfully hard for me to be around people. I mean looking back now people hurt me so it makes sense why I have the difficulty I have and especially from people who were suppose to be safe. Fast forward the therapist I am seeing now for the social anxiety said she couldnt treat me and that I have complex trauma that needs to be resolved 1st and that was the cause of the social anxiety. To me that makes sense. Here comes the hard part we have started to talk about the trauma and I am having all sorts of thoughts that are coming up and i can't sleep. I am so isolated and do not have any friends nor family to turn to when things hit the fan. It's hard going through each and everyday alone with no human interaction. I asked the therapist if I could be referred into a high level of care like a day program and she said that was for people with serious mental illnesses. I got really mad and in my head was like this is pretty serious and not normal to be alone as much as I am. I asked her what a serious mental illness was and she said bipolar/schizophrenia. I think complex trauma is just as serious as those other illnesses. So I got searching online thinking maybe an inpatient trauma program would be better. They can't take me because I don't meet criteria of be suicidal or homicidal. I can't keep going the way I am and having just 1 hr a week that I see a person...all this isolation is very triggering due to the nature of my trauma. What can I do??