Whatcha doooooooin'?

[Mee]

Putting off something I don’t want to do..... I don’t want to try to sleep tonight

 

[blackemerald1]

I had an enormous sleep but now I'm doing my own housework ugh... I've been unpacking suitcases and bags, dishes, washing, general tidying up.. I'm such a sloth. I'm feeling really downhearted today.

 

[Deanna]

I'm having a hard day. Tomorrow ( tonight) I have to make the decision to put my cat down. I look at her and see so much beauty. So it's hard. She's in pain but I can't bare to put her down tomorrow but it's starting to get in my heart to what I must do. ??

 

[blackemerald1]

but it's starting to get in my heart to what I must do

^I'm so sorry you are faced with this incredibly difficult time. However you do know that your cat cannot make decisions for herself to end her pain so unfortunately it is up to you. It's part of looking after all of her needs.

It's hard but you can put aside your own feelings and do what is right because she has given you so much comfort during her life with you and to you.

The alternative is bad. If she dies in pain you will always feel guilt that you were unable to put aside your own discomfort and meet her needs when she really did need you to step up and do it.

 

[Changing4Best]

I'm planning on taking off two more days from work. So, today will be a day of rest and hopefully less pain. Maybe I can just get away with a Tylenol or two today instead of something stronger. (I took a fall the other day; no broken bones that we know of).

 

[blackemerald1]

I took a fall the other day

^ I hope you start feeling much better and I'm glad there are no big injuries.

Taking a couple of days off seems quite appropriate considering you fell.

Take care. :hug:

 

[Muttly]

@Deanna sending tons of support your way and sitting with you.

//

drinking coffee and pondering going back to the doctor :P

 

[MrMoonlight]

just got out of the shower, drinking coffee....about to take meds eat and read maybe....one thing at a time.

 

[Deanna]

@Deanna sending tons of support your way and sitting with you.

Oh, so nice of u to think of me. I let go and bawled me eyes out yesterday. I woke up to a song that was sent by a friend! I'm so at peace with it now. Appt is at 4:30.
Here's the song. ( before that I knew it was the right thing to do) I knew it when I woke up.

 

[Deanna]

Here it is.. Nice... Dolly Pardon is in it!! Wow!!

 

[Muttly]

@Deanna One of the things I didn't fully understand, before working at the vet clinic is how deeply involved in euthanasia and the process I would be. I mean, that's part of why I didn't go into that field when I was younger was because I didn't think I could handle it. But I was just thinking about the pets dying. I wasn't thinking about watching pets age and come closer to that time and talking with owners and dealing with their grief and all of it.

One of the things I didn't realize is how much we staff can be grateful when a pet parent is ready to let go. How much we respect the process and the struggles the pet parent goes through. We definitely aren't judging. Sometimes, we wish a pet parent would be ready to make the decision because we know the pet isn't enjoying quality of life anymore and we are helpless to help at that point in the pet's life. But of course, we also get not wanting to let go. And I have heard many pet parents say they wish they had come to the decision sooner. We don't hear, we should have waited.

You are doing the right thing and it's super hard. Be gentle with yourself.

 

[Deanna]

Thank you! Means a lot.. ?!